Forced sex play and sex toys with Fred

Fred and I are sexually compatible. We both like forced and slightly rough sex. I get really turned on when he just ties my hands behind my back. At first that's all we did , using a tie or the band from the bathrobes found in hotels. He first noticed that I like to put my hands behind my back and push my bressts forwards to be attacked when I'm riding the him like a horse and he guessed what I was thinking. I like that he can guess what I want as I was too shy to tell him at first. The first time he tied my hands I was so excited I came very fast. It was pretend rape although I did not say it at first but later we could be very frank and the sex was fabulous. We both still miss each other sexually very much.

I like kneeling down with my hands tied behind while he forces his cock into my mouth in a mouth rape. When I'm very aroused, he will deep throat me very gently and he likes the feeling of his cock fitting snugly into the back of my throat but we don't do that often as it really makes me breathless and retch and I drool saliva all over. When I'm feeling very good about him I would volunteer it as a special treat. 

The next step was a mouth gag, at first only with the terry towel belt or a tie, but when he gave me a proper red ball gag with breathing holes, it was a real turn on for me. Fred knew I wanted more so he bought some rope. All our sex toys are bought from orchard road or during out travels. I like him to tie me up so that my breasts are bound above and below and protrude forwards. I also like to have my neck tied and attached to my hands which are tied behind my back. We both like chokers and we bought a set of black leather wrist and ankle cuffs / restrained that comes with a matching dog collar. There is a light silver chain that attaches to the dog collar. Fred sometimes uses the chain to control my head position when Im kneeling on all fours like a dog while he fucks me from behind doggy
style. Some times he uses a rope instead. When it's a rope he often loops it around my slit from front to back or the other way and pulls on it so the rope rubs my into my slit and my clitoris. Cool.  Usually the chain is just attached loosely to a bedpost or lamp post and symbolic of my captivity and slavery to him.

Sometimes, especially when we are abroad, Fred will dress me up sexiliy and make me wear the black dog collar. I never got down to buying a red dog collar to match my red outfits. We will go out for dinner at restaurants or drinks at clubs and the collar always means lots of flirting and foreplay
before retiring back for a night of sex. He has a necklace with a silver phallus and testicles which can attachés to the dog collar and which I wear during sex but which he sometimes forces me to wear out..it's so embarassing and I always refuse but if he gets his way, wearing the phallus makes me feel
very lusty the entire night, and makes me more flirty with the other men I may meet. After all, I'm already broadcasting my sexuality with that dong on my neck and can't hide myself. Fred gets turned on when I openly flirt with other men. I'm the one who gets upset that he isn't jealous enough.

For a brithdsy present, Fred bought me a high end vibrator. It was shaped like a penis and had a finger like projection at the top which fits against my clitoris nicely when it is inserted to the hilt. It had a two rows of ball bearings around the base which moved against my vulva and the tip could gyrate a bit. It was covered with silicone which felt a bit like human skin. It was the best sex aid. When Fred was busy with his family, I would masturbate with it. Since it was blue in colour, we pretended it was the cock of a man called Mr Blue.

It took me a long time to confess to Fred my sexual preferences. I think it took a year of persistent questioning from him to finally confess that I liked to be roughed up a bit,  and slowly to let on that I do masturbate to fantasies of rape, forced sex, being tied up and gagged,  of one night stands with strangers, and of being fucked by more than one man.

Fred made up stories with Mr Blue to help me enjoy these fantasies. Mr blue could be his friend with
whom I had a one night stand, or who raped me, or Fred and Mr Blue would fuck me together. Mr Blue had a ring at the base and by threading a rope through it, he could be tied deep inside my cunt or my anus and attached to my neck collar so it doesn't slip out. or I would give Mr Blue a blow job while Fred was fucking me. That's how I first enjoyed the pleasures of double penetration. Later on Fred bought another vibrator and I got to enjoy triple penetration sex. Usually I'm so excited I cum intensely within five minutes. Especially if one of the dildo vibrators is in my vagina and its  finger is
touching my clitoris. My favorite combination is with vibrator tied  in my vagina and anus and my arms tied behind my back while I kneel and give Fred a blow job. Fred enjoys this as much as I do but hsi favorite is with a vibratir up my ass while he fucks me from the front and watch me perform a lusty sucking of Mr Blue, pretending it is the cock of a man I met recently. I try to put on a good show for him.

Fred introduced me to body art. He draws all over me during sex and I love it. He likes to mark me with dirty drawings or words like Freds sex slave or  slut and I'm not allowed to wash it off. He wants to own me and I want to be owned. He likes leaving love bites all over my neck and my breasts and buttocks so I would be embarassed. We are talking twenty love bites so I can't explain it away to my friemds.

He likes nipple clamps and labial clamps. I like them too. The best is the remote control butterfly vibrator which I have to wear under my panties. Then we will go out to restaurants clubs, discos and bars, parks and we will just flirt and kiss in public but I've had many orgasms in public this way.

Most of the time, it's Fred talking me through these erotic stories as we fuck and it's really more important than how we fuck. He's very good at talking dirty and it gets me all wet. With Tom, my husband, I'm not going to be able to give him the filthy mind I like, yet it would too slutty for him if I were to suggest too much.  Progress is slow although he is becoming more open. I've got to change
his religious views about sex first. He's so charmingly nice and tender in bed,,  and he wants me very
much so it makes up for everything. It's just that I want to surrender sexually to him more completely and for him to take what he deserves but I can't give myself to him as completely as the way I've given myself to every other lover.he would be so jealous if he could see the way others take me casually, and use and abuse me for sex roughly without caring as much for me. Yet my mental cunt is wired up that way. I can't masturbate to straightforward sex, there has to be a kinky story.

Fred and I compared the porn and the erotica we like and we are are so alike in our preferences it's amazing. He likes all my stories and I like his. I don't have such a good match with my other lovers and he is the lover of my lifetime. When we were  apart and I'm lonely, sometimes I'll call him with
my earphones and he would talk dirty to me while I masturbate with mr blue. After I cum I'll go to sleep feeling much better.

I especially like japanese porn. a familiar theme is that I'm not slutty but I'm being forced into sex but halfway through, becaue of my natural high sex drive, I get so turned on that I start to cooperate with my rapist and end up with a forced orgasm even if there is guilt and embarassment at the end . I'm usually the passive woman who gets seduced and not the active huntress .Some of my favorite porn includes :
Sex on public transport with strangers after being crushed together at peak hours
Being drugged and then tied and raped and filmed and then blackmailed into endless rape
Blackmail sex
Hospital sex between nurses and doctors or patients
Lonely and horny housewife at home forced into unwilling sex and seduced into compliant sex
Massage by male masseur that ends up in unintended sex
Housewife raped at home by husbands friend, colleague or boss after husband is knocked out by drunkeness or drugs. I don't like it if it's only humiliation and violence but the woman doesn't get so much pleasure she can't help herself but have an orgasm.

Pleasurable rape
Double or triple penetration. Two or three men. Not more. I don't like two women and one man and either does Fred.
Slight violence only like threats with knife or gun of forced stripping but no hardcore beating and whipping
Rough sex without hurting
Japanese anime with huge muscular hard men with enormous cocks and feminine fair slender delicate women

Freds list of fave porn
Same except he is lukewarm about  one night stands with strangers.. He only likes his girlfriend having sex with strangers in front of him or at his bidding or as group sex. He isn't jealous at all.

Two men with one women especially
Aphrodisiac sex to turn unwilling women on
Bdsm gentle. He's dominant and I'm submissive.

Our love nest

Fred had a two bed room apartment within walking distance of the hotel which he rented out. As his secretary, I had to attend to their requests and bank in the monthly cheques. When the tenant went back home, and the lease was vacant, I suggested that we enjoy it for a few months before renting out. After all we were already spending thousands of dollars on hotel bills and rarely stayed overnight. We always used five star hotels so it was quite expensive. We ended up using it as our love nest for several years. It was so convenient, I eventually moved and stayed there for several years and made it my home. I was like his concubine or second wife. He let me decorate it and do it up nicely. We had photos of all our holidays together all over the apartment and it was a very happy home for us. Fred had mirrors installed  all over the bedroom and even a mirror on the ceiling! But the very best feature was that Fred set up a video camera which he connected to the large screen tv so that I could see myself having sex. I really like to watch myself being fucked. I get very wet and cum very fast. We even wrote scripts, dressed up and enacted porn scenes  and role play. Watching some of the best of these were our favorite foreplay before having sex. The bedroom closet was filled with lingerie, costumes, sex aids and hundreds of our porn video productions. We are porn stars and starlets! The advantage of the digital revolution was that I could store and process and edit all these privately. Fred likes photography and we have thousands of crystal clear still photos of ourselves posing during sex. The glory and beauty of my youth is expressed and captured in these photos and videos and one day when Im old and grey, and looking back over my life, I would be able to marvel how beautiful my body once was and remember that I've lived my life as fully as I could have and shouldn't regret. I might even show my grand children how naughty grandma was! But for now, I've so much material to masturbate to whenever I crave for something kinky that Tom can't amd won't indulge at the moment. One day Tom and I will make our own videos and enact our own sex stories!

Lingerie for my lovers

Except for my husband Tom, all my previous ex lovers like me in lingerie before and during sex. My ex boss cum lover used to own a lingerie shop in Far East Shopping Centre and so I must have tried hundreds of sexy lingerie for him and other later lovers. I bought some online and from the shops along Lucky Plaza and later Orchard Plaza. I think men like to imagine what they can't see and they find me more exciting in revealing clothes than stark naked. 

As in above, Fred my ex boss, likes the thrill of almost being caught so he would force me out of the hotel room in sexy lingerie against my will when no ones around but anyone could pop out of their room at any time and make me walk all over and pose for photos. After that we will flirt and kiss and he would be all over me, even to the point of penetrating sex in public before retiring to our room to continue. He likes to go balconies, fire escapes and stairs as most people take the lift and I would have my arms on the banisters with my legs spread apart on high heels whilst he takes me from behind. We would check for cameras but I'm sure we have given security guards some interesting xxx entertainment before. I'm reluctant at first but after much kissing and breast stimulation, I'm usually willing to do anything for him, even kneel down and suck his cock in broad daylight. We would usually hide around a corner to have advance warning but rarely we don't hear them or the hotel room door right in front of us opens suddenly. I've been caught completely unaware with his cock thrusting in my cunt or in my mouth before. It's so embarassing for me but Fred doesn't mind. Although Fred always had to force me,  Ive grown to like to this distraction that I started to try sex in inappropriate places with my other lovers. Most of them like the adventure too. I too shy to suggest to them but if we are playing a game with sex forfeits, I would bet that I be forced out of the room with only lingerie on and hope to lose the bet.

One of my favorite lingerie was a pink one piece crotchless suit with a little pouch in front of my clitoris where a small bullet vibrator can be kept. I could wear it with a lace wrap or under my clothes. Then we can have sex in any position without clitoral stimulation and I would still come very fast. It's good for quickies and sex in strange places because otherwise, the men cum too fast for me to get an orgasm. I could also cum while giving a blow job in a public place or even just kissing in a bar, or dancing closely. Even with bedroom sex, I can turn the vibrator off if I'm close to cumming so we can have prolonged vigorous sex many positions without having to worry about clitoral or gspot stimulation.  It's useful for sex in the cinema too. I bought it on a trip to condomania in Lucky Plaza with one of my lovers. The most kinky sexperience was with one of my lovers who rode a motorbike. We went off the road along the long straight airport road besides the runway. We found an open clearing and he taught me how to handle the bike by riding pillion behind me It was great fun and he was rubbing my breasts and nipples and my whole body and my clit while I drove round and round in a circle. We got so hot, we stopped to strip completely naked and continued the motorcycle sex lesson . When I was good enough, I stood up on the moving bike and sat down on cock. He leaned forward and revved the bike so I could feel the vibrations in my cunt. We continue riding till he came inside me. He loved it. The next time I wore my special crotchless lingerie with the vibrator and wore a loose miniskirt over it. This time I had a fantastic quickie orgasm with the vibrator.. I almost crashed the motorbike when I came but Arif quickly leaned forward and took over the controls. I ts very hard for me to control a motorbike when I'm having an orgasm and I never quite learnt how to do it. 

Maybe Tom my husband can go for riding lessons....

Lusty Holidays with Fred

I loved my overseas holidays with Fred because that's when we would not have to hide in case we were seen together. We would walk holding hands or with his hands around my waist. And most of all, we could spend the whole day and night together, without him having to rush off after sex.  After romantic dinners and long nights of sex, we would fall asleep cuddled together and wake up in each other's arms. These wonderful holidays always seem too short and I will never forget them. 

On these holidays ,Fred will want me to dress me up sexily and why not, I'm only young once and I should show off my body while its still sexy and beautiful.  When in the pool, I'm always in a g string bottom to show off my pert butt. Dressing sexily for him keeps both him and I in a constant state of lust and desire.

Fred would swim up behind me and rub his cock between my buttocks. His hands are always rubbing my exposed butt. Sometimes if the pool is quiet we would flirt in the pool. With a g string, my vulva and clit are always exposed for rubbing. I'd get very excited and want to go back to the hotel bedroom but sometimes I'd surrender to his desire to fuck publicly in the pool. Usually this means me sitting on him with my arms around his neck or with him standing and I'd wrap my legs around him with my arms around his neck. The water supports my weight well so he can lift me up and down with his hands on my butt.

How I became a slut

i think sex for humans is not the same as sex for animals. animals are driven by instincts which are mostly inherited. Humans are different. How a man or woman gets sexually excited depends on their experiences when they are young and impressionable.. From my readings of novels, romances and movies, I have ideas and hopes of falling in love with a handsome capable man who will love me passionately whom I would love.

Unfortunately, these romantic books and movies didn't show how the sex was going to be. Instead, I learnt everything about sex from the stash of porn videos my father left behind when he deserted my mom and us. I get sexually excited by the same scenarios as in these porn. This means I get excited by scenes of forced reluctant sex, bondage and submission, seduction, blackmail, sex with the wrong people in the wrong places, adultery, kinky sex, multiple partners, etc. It also meant that the the men who excite me are the men who view me as the sexual fantasies in these porn. I'm their sexual fantasy come through because I'm brainwashed to enjoy the same kind of sex as I saw in the porn. I kept datng men who only wanted me as their sex toy and not as their steady girlfriend and potential wife to be. I was always a sexual fling for them but I wanted soemthing permanent. Of course when these boyfriends of mine were getting free wild sex, they wouldn't tell me they think I'm not suitable for them until they've had enough sex. Then I get dumped becaue they can't stand my sensitivity, stubbornness, and temper because while I'm totally submissive and pliant in the bedroom, my personality outside sex is independent snd proud . The trouble is that it usually takes years for them to tell me they have had enough of me because the sex is so good for them. (I try very hard in bed). So here I am, with 16 years of sex with maybe a dozen partners and none proposed!

The man I married respects and loves me and he would have married me without having sex with me! I was looking for love with the wrong people. For Tom, I felt that he was a good man to live with and raise kids with. I didn't have a falling in love kind of chemistry with him like I had with John or Fred. Neither did I the sexual attraction I felt  with my other lovers. There was neither sex nor love with Tom. Just a recogniton that he was suitable and that he liked me a lot. I wouldn't have accepted him when I was 16 or even 26. But at 32, and still single, I had to seriously consider him. And when I gave him a chance, he slowly grew on me. He's not rich But his job is more secure than many of my lovers, his respect and liking for me showed in the consideration and tenderness in his actions. I didn't have any reason to get angry so he didn't think I was hot tempered. And he was always available me wanted to spend most of his time with me. I was his number one.

If I have a daughter in future, I wouldn't want her to go through my path. I would try to teach her to ensure that she gets sexually attracted to the people who respect and love her. There's somehting wrong with me only being sexually attracted  to bad  boys. It's a recipe for sadness. All my relationships were stormy because two incompatible people were stuck together by great sex. There was always soemthing making me unhappy because the respect wasn't there.

If you have good sex with some one who isnt suitable, it just prolongs a dead end relatiosnhip. It's better not to have sex until you have established a good friendship.  It's a waste of time if you are looking for long term love.

As for me, I can't seem to undo my sexual preferences. I love Tom and I cum with him but I still get sexually excited by kinky naughty sex where I'm used like a sex toy.... Sigh.  I'm a hopeless slut. If I'm not careful, I'll end up unfaithful and lose my life's happiness.

Why I'm a slut Part 2

The porn film continued with the villain only allowing the heroine to get the heroin injections only AFTER they had had sex and not before. Now she could no longer hallucinate that it was her husband so she was unwilling and found it disgusting. However her body was wracked with the cravings of heroin withdrawal. She wanted the high of heroin. He wouldn't give it to her unless she she was 100 % convincing in her enthusiasm for sex with him and pretended to have an orgasm. She worked so hard at pretending to enjoy the sex and having fake organs that she began to enjoy herself and have true orgasms although she was wracked with guilt. Little by little, he wore down her defences so that soon she looked forwards to the sex as much as the drugs.

She did everything with him she didn't do with her husband. Anal sex, penetration with a dildo vibrator, bondage, ropes, ball and gag, dressed in slutty lingerie, sex in all sorts of public places And with different men taht he introduced whilst she was high on drugs. He had all sorts of drugs to make the sex better. Cocaine, marihuana, etc. She wasn't keen on having more men at first but after he made it easier with heroin, she especially like being fucked by more than one man. It was very exciting for her. She had very intense orgasms from double and triple penetration with men he introduced, not knowing they were paying customers and that she ws being prostituted.

After a year, she was totally hooked not only on the wonderful sex and drugs but she had begun to like him like a lover. So when one day, the police arrested him for drug pedaling and he was put away in jail for many years, she was actually very sad and cried  and missed him a lot. She scanned the newspapers but no videos of her sex bondage became public so she was relieved. Like me, there was no way her husband was going to accept her back if he had known. She managed to overcome her drug addiction secretly and went back to a happy mundane life with her husband.

The movie ended with her straight husband pumping her in bed in the usual missionary positon while she cried out in orgasm but the camera zoomed in on her sweet demure face, with the long eyelashes and within her eyes, in her mind, she was dreaming of her rough triple penetration sex orgies........

Why I'm an immoral slut

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Sex on a chair

One of my favorite sex positions in the confines of the shop where I work is the office chair. We specially selected it. It's large chair so it always comes with armrests, but it's very important that the armrests can be tilted up out of the way. The chair can lean backwards 30 degrees and rock in rhythm to our thrusts. I like Fred to sit down naked and I will face him. I may perform a strip dance or belly dance ( With his instruction, I went for courses for both) and strip in front of me leaving only my high heels. I will start with either grinding myself against his groin in a  lap dance or kneel on the floor and warm him up with a blow job. I like to put the chair in front of the mirror so I can watch myself being fucked. When I'm fully turned on, I will stand astride him and fully gyrate myself above his erect cock and slowly slowly lower myself onto his spear..this is where it's important to adjust the height of the chair low enough. I make Fred lean backwards  and I lean forward a bit to give me a better angle to grind my clitoris against his pubic hair. With myself deeply impaled upon his stick, I gyrate my hips and cunt around his cock whilst supporting my arms upon his shoulders. He is free to use his hands to get at my breasts, nipples, buttocks, and kiss my lips or my breasts. I get maximum stimulation this way and will usually cum before him within five minutes if I want to.

If I want to finish him off, I use my arms and legs to stand up and sit down on him and this pumping action will also get him off very fast. It's quite tiring to pump him this way and if tis the second time time we are having sex  and he can't come, I get a very physical workout and may even sweat in the aircon room.

Another favorite is to sit with my back to him, again with my legs astride him. Both of us either sit erect or lean back together and with my legs on the ground, I grind my self on him. One of his hands will run all over me and my breasts and nipples and the other will be rubbing my clit. Again it's very good for me and when I've cum, I may accelerate his cumming by doing some up and down pumping and get some exercise at the same time. I often do a butt dance for him and slowly get into his lap backwards. What I like is I can see my whole body in the mirror as I'm being fucked. I Like to watch. It's a good position as we can watch porn on a laptop as we fuck. Or watch old or live videos of ourselves fucking.

I can also sit down and put my legs up. Either with my legs over his shoulders or I pull the armrests down and split myself wide open with my legs across the rests. We replaced the wheels with stops so the chair doesn't roll away and he can pump him away. I can get some g spot action if my hips are tilted up enough and the chair height is higher.

Sometimes, Fred may be sitting down on the chair making phone calls. If they are too long, or if I get jealous or impatient, I kneel down in front of him, unzip him, and pull his cock out of his briefs. To make it easier access, I've bought several pairs of a special brief that is just a band with a cup over penis and bakes but no back.  Then I will pump his shaft fast and suck his cock head hard whilst he talks. I especially like to do this if he is talking with his wife. It excites me to have him answer his phone calls with his wife when we are having sex. I'll try very hard to make him cum when he is on the phone with her and I'll encourage him to answer her calls. I'm bad. I'm trying to make him feel less for his wife and I want to win him over to marry me, he enjoys it too and when the call ends we will continue fucking furiously if he hasn't cummed.

If I put the chair at maximum height, I can kneel on it with my arms on the headrest and stick my butt out so Fred can enter me from behind. The chair can lean back to help this. I can also get g spot stimulation at this angle sometimes.  Again we can watch porn videos together as we fuck.

I've also had sex with Fred in the same way on public toilet seats just for fun or when we can't control ourselves. I always have to go to the mans toilet and the excitement of sneaking in without being caught as well as to keep very quiet. It's usually a clean hotel toilet and it's usually spontaneous and unplanned.

I brought Fred back to the park seat in Sembawang park several times. The same place and the same seat where I lost my virginity to John too. We would choose a cool night and I will wear a mini skirt with g string or crotchless panties. I'll wear a low cut blouse or unbutton several buttons. He will usually make me remove my bra in the car first. We will hold hands and kiss and I'll tell him stories about how John and I had sex both there and other places. He likes to hear about my sexual experiences so I'll tell him everything. By then both of us are so excited we will have sex in the park. I also told him about my one night stand with a taxi driver in that park. It seems like I've brought every single lover to have sex on that park bench except for Tom, my beloved husband and the only lover who proposed. I plan to bring him there one night .........

Fred and I will sit side by side and I'll rub his cock while he rubs my cunt. Soon we will be so horny we wouldn't care if others were watching. I'll unzip him and pull his cock out to pump while we kiss amd tongue each other. He will be rubbing my wet slit all the time. I may lean over to suck his cock. If I kneel uncomfortably on my knees on the hard park bench, I'm short enough for him to reach around to rub my slit or finger fuck me while I'm sucking his cock. When im ready to cum, I'll sit on his lap with my back to him, and I'll pump up and down on him with my hands back against his hips and thrusting my breasts forwards. He will usually unbutton my blouse  enought to expose my breasts and nipples to the world and pinch them. I'm shy but when I'm hot, I'll do whatever he wants as it excites me too.

One day I'll tell Tom about all the dirty things I've done and have been done to me on that park bench and he will accept it and also be excited enought to have sex with me there too.

Sex with my boss on a chair

Being a married man who didn't want his wife to suspect anything, Fred likes to fuck me during office hours. It helped that his wife enjoyed her work which kept her busy till 9-10 pm at night. During those hours, Fred and I had lots of chances to enjoy each other's company. When Fred has only an hour or two, we would make the best use of our time by having sex in his boutique at Hilton where I worked. At first we only had a hard stool and the step ladder. We were often in danger of falling off the stool. The step ladder allowed me to support myself with one leg high up for standing sex but we wanted a more relaxed position.

Fred and I went shopping for a nice arm chair along the Beach road furniture centre. We chose a large one with armrests that could be hinged up to give more room. It could lean back 30 degrees and had a rocking motion. The adjustable height is also very convenient  for certain positions and I wanted one with a greater height adjustment. We had many hours of pleasurable sex on that chair for a few years and I have bought an almost identical chair for our new flat with my husband Tom and am secretly hoping to be able to get Tom to agree to have sex on the chair. Tom wondered why I was so particular about the chair. Although warmer, I preferred a leather or polyurethane material to the mesh because it's difficult to clean the semen and vaginal fluids off the mesh but Tom felt mesh was cooler. I sometimes nurse my baby on that chair because the I can rest my arm on it and support my baby. Sitting on the chair brought back pleasurable memories of the horny old days in the shop....

Actually, Fred only needs to come down once or twice at most a week to check the accounts and the inventory and find out what stocks are moving and what isn't..especially since I've been working for three over years. But after we started a torrid affair together, he came down almost every day. If there was work
to be done, we would both like to get it done first. I would behave like any shop girl but I would draw
the curtains and lock the door first, looking around to see if our neighboring showgirls have seen him enter. After ensuring our privacy I'll turn around and give him a hug and a peck on the lips. "Hi! I miss you very much since yesterday! How was your day? How's business? Would you like a drink? If I knew he was coming beforehand, I'll have bought a fruit juice for him ( he's health conscious) usually an iced orange juice but sometimes orange mixed with carrot. If he was staying for a while, I'll kneel down on the floor and take off his socks and shoes and put in place a pair of slippers which I bought specially him. If he said he was tired, I'll say, "poor dear, what did you get up to last night?"  Ill put him in the arm chair or lie him down on the small sofa and give him a shoulder massage. "Did your wife tire you out last night?" Im always jealous of his wife and would happily wait to hear him say something reassuring like, " I haven't had sex with my wife for many years!" I would ask, "did you fight with your wife last night?" And would like to hear him grumble about her. Then I'll say, "that's not very nice of her" or "that's not nice/right" or "I would have said/done this or that." I like kids and don't mind hearing him talk about them but after a while I get jealous.

Work was fun because we would stand very close together whilst going through the clothes and the books and our hands or bodies would be brushing. I always have his favorite perfumes on my body so he can smell me close up and I'd brush my hair and touch up my lipstick before he arrives. He doesn't use perfume but I like his natural scent anyway. I bought him a bottle of a men's perfume that I find stimulating and sometimes he uses that, as he knows I like it.  I'd sit on a stool next to his chair and go through the accounts and our hands will touch accidentally all the time. Almost every time, he will be aroused within half an hour and I'll be on his lap talking to him with my arms around his neck. I'll talk to him about anything but the talk would often turn sleazy and dirty and then we will fuck.

For example,once I sat on his lap sideways on the special chair and I asked, "I know a girl who doesn't like sex and hasn't had sex with her husband for three years, the husband has a lusty affair
with his secretary, do you blame him?" Fred laughed, " I can't blame him, can I ? I also haven't had sex with my wife for years and now I'm also screwing my secretary. It's not right of course, but both parties are
 to blame." I asked, "do you love me or do you just want sex?" He replied," you are pretty as well as
sweet, so which healthy man wouldn't want to screw you? But I won't have been interested if you
were bitchy or low classs." " so does this mean you don't love me?" " No it doesn't mean I don't love you. But I'm not thinking of divorcing my wife and marrying you either. You are a good friend whom I love fucking.""do you have other girlfriends whom you also would love to fuck?" " Hey, it's difficult to resist an attractive girl who makes herself available. We men are sex machines." As we talked, I could feel Fred getting a hard erection against my buttocks  His hand which was caressing my inner thigh, climbed higher and started rubbing my slit. I opened my legs to let him in deeper. " Your sales assistant at the Far East Plaza shop is young and sexy and has been with working for you longer than I have, why dont you seduce her like you seduced me?""How do you know I havent fucked her already?" Fred replied. I stiffened with surprise and jealousy. He saw my response, "Jealous? Don't be. I didn't fuck her although I sure she would have wanted that very much. She has a steady boy friend but that didn't stop her from flirting with me. As well as other men who came to the shop to look for her. "She's quite pretty, why didn't you fuck her if she wanted it?" I asked
nonchalantly, but I was jealous as hell. "Because we aren't on the same wavelength. She's only interested in where you can get a good manicure or cheap facial and gossip. Since we work together, I had a vision of always having to make personal small talk with her every time I go to the shop and that made me go soft. So I just got out of the shop as fast as I could." My voice quivered as I said, " you mean, you mean you were having sex halfway and then went soft?" " No! Stuly, she was being very friendly and coming so close she was rubbing herself against me as we talked about the shop. I knew she was offering herself and I had a hard-on but i don't specially like her. Maybe if we were at a club I'd have had a one night stand with her, but I wouldn't have stayed for a post coital chat..but you, you are different, I like to seek you out to talk to you even if there was no sex on the table, or chair
..."

He was rubbing my clit all this while and making me wet, I held his hand and showed him how I liked it, delicately in small round circles about the base even if fast because I'm very sensitive. " I'm just a poorly educated shop girl who hasn't seen the world, maybe I'm just like her? Maybe you will get sick of seeing me and won't want to talk to me after you have been satisfied?" I said, feeling insecure. " You aren't like that Stuly, your mind is open and curious, you will grow and blossom but Lily is still going to be talking about the same few things years from now.""would you have had a one night stand with me?" "Yes I would, but you're different, more aloof, and I wouldn't have approached you at a club, whereas Lily is more provocative. But if I had had a night stand with you, I would have wanted much more after that."" What would you have wanted?""I'd have wanted to find out more about you and definitely get your number so I'd follow up." I was happy with that and with my arms around Freds neck, I started to kiss him. We tongued and rubbed our lips and I opened my legs wide so he could play with my clit. Free paused kissing and continued, " with lily I feel like I'm hunted, but with you I feel I've found a hidden precious treasure that everyone else wanted and overlooked, I feel I've conquered a classy girl and won you over as a prize and that I'm getting a great deal and wonderful sex for nothing." " I  couldn't talk any more as I wanted him so I kissed him again and hitched my skirt up so I could really really open my legs wide. Within minutes, I came with a
wonderfully intense orgasm. I love Fred.

Pregnant with my boss's baby

I'm a mom! I finally have my own baby! Yes, it's Toms baby, not Fred's. He's perfectly formed, thank goodness! I'm an old mom at 35 so I was worried. There was hardly any pain. The only pains I had were before the epidural anesthesia. My progress was slow so I ended up with a Caesarian. Now I've a scar along the panty line but at least my vagina is still tight for my husband.

But my sexual desires have vanished with the birth of Tim. All that lust that had me masturbating has vanished. My sex hormones have crashed and I'm feeling a bit hollow and empty inside. Weepy even. Tom has been very sweet and supportive and he has taken a month off to be with me so it really helps chase away the blues. I get enough rest as he helps out with changing the diapers and washing the baby.

Tim is so cute, and so hungry. Hes always latching on to my nipples and sucking on them so many times a day. Then he goes to sleep. Unlike when a man sucks on my nipples, I feel no sexual stimulation whatsoever, which goes to show how psychological sex is. Watching him, I feel a tinge of regret about losing my first pregnancy. The baby would be a big twelve year old now and taking hsi PSLE.

If I hadn't aborted Freds baby, I would have been set up in a apartment in Orchard Road near his shops where Fred could visit when he was working and maybe I might have had another child as well. I would spend all my time being a mother and being Freds mistress. However weekends my kids won't have a father to be at home with and I won't have a man to cuddle to sleep with every night and wish me good morning every day with a kiss.

Yes, I was pregnant before, with my ex boss's baby, a long time ago. That was maybe 12-13 years ago when I was 21-22 and deeply in love with my married boss. In the first month of our affair, the sex was so exciting and hot, I couldn't think straight, I just wanted him deep inside me when he came to feel complete. Fred always wanted to pull out but I held on to his body and hugged him closer and told him to cum inside me. I always want that when im having good sex. It feels more complete and natural and satisfying and was part of the stimulation. When I'm having hot sex with the man I love, when I am about to cum or had just cummed, I want to surrender completely to him by letting him cum inside me. Its the ultimate surrender, to let him impregnate  me.It's We were having sex almost daily so before the month was over, I had missed my period.

That's how I also got pregnant withTom. We weren't married but I liked him so much, I was having unprotected sex again and let him cum inside me. When we came, I said I wanted his baby and asked him to cum deeply inside me. I told him there were no strings attached and if he didn't want to be a father, then I'll have the baby alone without any help from him. I was saying  it even before he proposed. It was a love baby whether or not Tom still wanted me but this time I wasn't aborting. I was already 34 then. I would be a mother even if I had to do it single handedly. Luckily Tom wanted both me and the baby.

Fred handled my pregnancy very well. Even though he was married with kids. He started by telling me that if I wanted the baby, he would be responsible for it. He would pay for all expenses for bringing him up and even for me if I wanted to be a full time mother. He would try to be there for the baby but that would be a problem as he also has his own family and kids. He would treat me like a second wife.

After he had reassured me he wasn't running away, he listed all the disadvantages of being a single mother so young and of course there were so many reasons. I remember the most important reason was that I wasn't ready to be a mother. I wanted adventure and sex, not motherhood. Fred personally brought me to a gynecologist, and I didn't even need an operation. The doctor gave me a very high dose of hormones by mouth and that was it. I felt nauseated and vomited a few times but the baby was gone, and I had my period shortly after. I regretted it for weeks. I felt the baby was a permanent connection with Fred which would have tied him to me forever. I might eventually have been able to get him to commit to me fully, even though he said he couldn't at first. I  went  on oral contraceptive pills after that mini abortion. .

One of the reasons my affair with Fred lasted so long was his willingness to have a baby with me. I
felt secure and loved. It wasn't just sex alone and yet the sex was great. I wonder how our baby would have turned out, would he have Freds sleepy eyes? Etc and I feel a bit guilty, but I think I made the
right decision, I wouldn't have been a good mother then. Now, more than a decade later, having seen the world, and having had affairs with quite a few men, I'm ready to settle down and focus on someone else's needs instead of mine.