Raped by Rake again Part 1

Tom has been working late again and when he's tired, he loses interest in sex. We haven't tried had sex for weeks and I'm horny. Tonite he's staying late at office to finish a project that's overdue. He's staying back with his female colleague who is younger than me and attractive. Who knows what they are up to? My baby's asleep next door. I'm young, fresh, and filled with desire. I know I should keep myself pure for Tom and I've been faithful physically, but mentally I'm an immoral lusty slut. I put on a short see through black lingerie. I can see my nipples through the sheer material. I put on lipstick and watch myself in the full length mirror. I practice some dance moves from my pole dancing and belly dancing lessons. As I gyrate to some music, I rub my nipples to erection and push my g string aside to rub my slit. I'm wet with lust. I turn on my laptop and open a secret file of videos. I found the video Rake taped when he raped me as I was drunk. It turned me on tremendously. I lay down and as  I watched it the part where I was blindfolded with my arms tied behind, and lustily sucking Rakes cock. I imagined Rake fucking me as I rubbed myself to orgasm.....after all, maybe Tom is fucking his colleague On the office table right now...I think back....

After the rape , I agonized over telling Fred for weeks. In the end, I didn't tell Fred about being raped by his best friend Rake. Rake had a perfect cover story and I didn't know if Fred would believe my side of the story. Fred knows how horny and uninhibited I get after several drinks. Sigh. I was sitting up in bed in our love nest , whilst Fred was reading a book about property investment next to me, while I thought of telling him. Would he believe me? I had told him about the one time I got raped violently by my first boyfriend, and how somehow, I had been so aroused, I had an orgasm. He knows I get turned on watching rape porn, and we had enacted rape fantasies in our love making. Pretending I mistook Rake for Fred is just the kind of playfulness Fred gets from me. And who would believe I could I fail to recognize who I was screwing for an hour? The other trouble was that I did have a very exciting night of pleasure and the orgasm had been so intense and prolonged.  I couldn't deny that, even thinking of that night at this moment brought me some arousal. I felt my nipples through my thin see through lingerie. They were hard from my reminiscing. Fred had his back to me, I put my hand down between my legs to my vulva, I was wet and sticky. I felt guilty like I was compliant and a willing accomplice in my own rape. I shook my head, and decided not to tell him. Fred caught my movement from the corner of his eye,' what was that?' He asked. Oh. Nothing. I lied. I'm just tossing my hair to straighten it out. And trying to look pretty for you, I smiled an extra sweet seductive smile for Fred and bending forwards a bit to show my cleavage, to somehow apologize for not telling him.  Fred came to me immediately and I forgot everything as Fred satisfied my desires thoroughly.

Unfortunately for me, Rake didn't forget. He has so many pretty young girls one after another clinging to him, when we double dated, that I thought I was just a one night stand for him but no. He
has to come after his best friends mistress. Many of his girls were stunners so I wasnt expecting him
to come at me again. But a few weeks after the rape, he turned up at the hotel boutique where I worked near closing time. 'Hi! Stul! "He said in a too familiar way as though we were close friends. 'I couldn't get you out of my mind so I thot I'll drop by to say hello!' He walked straight into the shop as
 he greeted me and came straight towards me. I staggered back a few steps in surprise and fear and my arms came up to fend off his chest as he gave me an unwanted hug and tried to kiss me on the lips. I turned away in time to receive his kiss on my cheek. 'No!' I stammered and pushed him away. "Stop it! Or lll tell Fred about you or call the police!" He backed away, "ok, ok, I just wanted to buy a gift  dress for my girl and I thought I'd give Fred some business," he put his hands up and tried to reassure me. I was still young enough to be such a sucker for his lies, I even agreed to try out the clothes Rake chose so that he could tell if they were the right size or suited her. I had to try several sexy outfits for him and he bought every one I modeled so I couldn't refuse him. We normally don't sell much of such sexy outfits but we keep a few for me to wear as foreplay when I have sex with Fred in the boutique.

When I came out of the fitting room with a very short and low cut halter neck dress that barely covered my breasts, Rake lost control of himself and pushed me back into the fitting room, grabbing me  round the waist and trying to kiss me. I clamped my lips shut and tried to turn my face away."stop it! You animal" I hissed ."get out!" And pushed with all my might against his chest with
my hands.  RAke grabbed one of my wrists and twisted hard. "Ouch! Youre hurting me!" I cried. I had to turn my back to him to avoid getting my shoulder dislocated. He grabbed my other hand and now I had both my hands behind me. He must have prepared for this because he had a tie or scarf ready which he used to tie my hands securely behind me. "Let me go or I'll scream!" I yelled but next moment something soft was stuffed in my mouth and secured there with a stocking. Rake stood behind me and pulled at my low cut halter neck. I had taken off my bra to model it for him because the bra straps would be seen and it would be ugly. . My breasts spilled out and he started massaging them and squeezing my nipples.  "Mmmmmmf!" I protested. I was facing the full length mirror and could see Rakes face and my body as I was being molested. I wriggled and twisted violently but couldn't escape his grip on my breasts and his bear hug. I could feel his hard erection rubbing against my back and my hands.

After five minutes of ignoring my muffled cries and pleas, Rake whipped out his hand phone and showed me the video of me sucking his cock lustily while I was blindfolded. " if you keep struggling, I will send this video anonymously to Fred!" He threatened. I shook my head sideways vigorously and looked at him to indicate "don't you dare!" And No! But after that I didn't struggle as hard and I let him enjoy caressing my breasts. He was nibbling and kissing my neck and soon after, one of his hands drifted down between my legs and started rubbing my pussy. I renewed my struggles to free myself but he showed me the video again. I shook my head again at the horrible idea of Fred seeing it and relaxed enough for him to pull my hem up and pull my g string aside. Now he was rubbing my clitoris directly with one hand and tweaking a nipple with the other and kissing my cheeks and neck, and I had to watch him do it in the mirror. To my horror, my body began to respond to his continued
assault. My nipples became very hard and erect and my cunt became very wet.

After my first and only rape by my first boy friend ended in an orgasm, I had always wondered about how my body can respond against my wishes. I had rape fantasies after that, and masturbated or role played with Fred but didn't know how I would react to a real rape by a stranger. I was curious and I wanted to find out for sure. So, at this dangerous moment of losing control, I waited out of curiosity  to see what would happen. I stopped struggling and let him continue to stroke my clitoris and my nipples and  give me love bites on my neck. Five minutes later it was very clear to me that great pleasure was radiating from my groin and my breasts, which, if continued was going to result in an orgasm. I was already having slight involuntary gyrations of my hips and body. If I was going to escape being raped,  it was now or never! With a last ditch effort, I twisted my body free and ran out of the fitting room to get help.

Alas! The glass door was locked and all the screens were drawn so nobody could see us. Fred and I had fixed it so we could have sex in the shop with privacy. There was even a sofa bed!  With my hands behind my back, I backed up against the door knob and fumbled  with my fingers blindly and desperately  tried to open the door. I didn't make it in time and Rake dragged me to the sofa and threw me on it. I sat down with my legs closed but he knelt down and forced my knees apart. When I resisted, he bit the inside of my thighs with his teeth, taking tiny painful bites, and after a dozen bites, I surrendered and left my legs opened wide for him. He started to lick my clit with long strokes of his tongue. I became very wet and the pleasure started to build up again. I tried to wriggle my cunt away but his mouth was glued to my vulva. I was feeling a heady mixture of fear, anger, and sexual excitement. I was angry at him and angry at myself for my total lack of self control and at how low class and cheap I was..I tried very hard not to move my hips as the pleasure intensified but couldn't prevent periodic jerks. When he pulled off my g string, I cooperated with him too readily and I was shocked at myself. He pulled my halter neck over my head and pulled my dress off. I lifted my buttocks to help him when he barked "lift your ass up!". Now I was completely naked and he renewed his assault on my body.  " thanks for being so cooperative, is it because you want to be fucked?"  I shooked my head violently to indicate no and mumbled no through my gag.

He restarted licking my vulva and my clit and rubbed and twisted both my nipples at the same time. I can't believe how I can experience such arousal and pleasure against my will. I was so angry I wanted  to hit Rake and angry at my body's betrayal of my mind. I was so humiliated by him, I was sobbing in  a mixture of anger, embarrassment, and frustration as I tried very hard not to experience pleasure to
no avail. In fact, it was more exciting and pleasurable than usual, and as each wave of pleasure surged throughout my body, I stiffened up, to try to suppress my natural reaction to gyrate and push up against his lips. Rake paused to look up at me and smile, " I've always known you're a highly sexed girl, Stuly, and tonight, I'm going to help you express your full sexual potential and help you realize who and what you are. You were born to be my sexual plaything! "

To he continued.....

Raped and seduced by Rake part 2

One of Fred's hands came between my legs from the front, pulled my g string aside and entered my already wet cunt. He started to finger fuck me with two fingers, gliding over my clitoris and searching for my g spot until he found it. He was pumping me fast and furiously. That's nice and rough Fred, I like it this way, I said this as Fred had never done this before. With both clitoral and g spot stimulation, I was fully aroused and starting to buck against his fingers and his cock. I love you Fred! I whispered. We kept up this fast pace and in five minutes, I said, I'm cumming Fred.

Fred stopped immediately. He pulled my hands behind my back and tied them together. Why aren't you talking Fred? Oh! So this is  a rough rape? Hmmg! Fred grunted, like a caveman, and pulled me up to a kneeling position on the bed facing him. He held my head with both his hands and guided me and soon I felt his cock against my lips. I started to lick his cock head with my tongue  and nibbled it with my lips and gyrated my head around his cock head. I paused and smiled, you are extra hard and big tonite, Fred, and continued sucking, licking swirls around his cock head and going deeper now and then. Fred made an animal sound of pleasure which made it more exciting. I started to pump up and down his shaft with my lips, he helped me by putting his hands behind my head and pumping as he thrust forwards. Fred started to go deep once in a while till my lips were pressed against his pubes and his cockhead was pressed against the back of my throat. We've done this many times and I'm used to not retching but this time I couldn't breathe. I jerked back and out to catch a few breaths and went back to work on his cock head again. When I had fully recovered my breath, I started to pump him again, after several cycles, Fred movements were stiffening and  getting jerky so I knew he was coming. You're so different tonight Fred, it's more exciting when you do it differently each time, I said breathlessly, now I want your cock in me.

I couldn't see but Fred lay down on his back and guided me to sit astride his hips, he held my hips while I slowly found his cock with my cunt and lowered my self on his shaft. You're so thick and hard tonite Fred, I like it. Harrg, Fred made an animal sound and grabbed both my breasts roughly and started to squeeze them. I arched myself forwards to give him My breasts whilst I pumped up and down his shaft whilsr rubbng my clit back and forth against him. My hands were tied behind me but i could reach his testicles to softly stroke them. My, your balls are big tonite, I said. After five minutes, I was done for, I'm going to cum, Fred, I cried. I love you!  Fred pulled down against his chest and we kissed passionately, whilst he pumped me fast and furiously. The pleasure of his shaft stretching and pulling on my cunt lips was so great, I had an intense prolonged whole body climax and he came inside me soon after and I had the satisfaction of feeling he had a great cum too.  I was so relaxed and satisfied, I fell asleep on his chest, as I felt him untying my hands. I wrapped them round his neck and went to sleep.

Wake up Stul. I rubbed my eyes. The blindfold was gone. Thanks fir a great night Stul, you were wonderful. Morning Fred, I mumbled, it was bright already and hard to open my eyes, I leaned forwards to kiss Fred and got a shock! Rake! What are you doing here? How? I was still lying on his chest. I jerked  upright and covered my breasts with my arms. Rake was smiling, thanks for a wonderful fuck, Stul, you were great! No wonder Fred's always praising you. I came to say goodbye last nite but I liked your wonderful flirting idea of pretending I'm Fred, so I played along, takes away the guilt doesn't it? And you are one hot chick! , you're great! You had a very good time too but the next time I want to do it as Rake. Bbbbut bbbut, I really thought you were Fred! You did? I thot you knew, you kept going on as to how I was different and you like me different. I got up from  the bed, snatching my gown, my clitoris and vulva was still throbbing and memories of the pleasure haunted me. Get out!  I Said coldly, you took advantage of a drunk and sleepy woman. It's rape! Rake got up, I'm sorry Stul, but I really thought you were playing along, I mean, I've had lots of women, and many are coy and act shy but they still really wanted me to fuck them. Yes I got into bed to say goodbye and expected to be thrown out, but I didn't think you wouldn't know the difference between  me and Fred, I thought you were flirting and playing a very exciting sex game with me. Sorry, I'm leaving now.

I was speechless. Did Rake meant what he said?

Xxxxx

Raped and Seduced by Rake Part 1

Now that Tim is in childcare, I've all the weekday mornings free but I've not been blogging because I've been feeling guilty about betraying Tom. However, when ever we have sex, I now find it almost impossible not to think of that sensuous night with Fred. If I don't stop thinking of Fred, I'll end up having sx with him again. To stop myself imagining it's Fred fucking me instead of Tom, I think of someone else from my past, someone who raped me and taught me to love being raped and dominated completely. In fact, I've just cum from masturbating and thinking of Rake......

Rake was one of Fred's old time friend from school days. They travelled together and exercised together and clubbed together so I saw quite a lot of him. He was tall, lean and muscular and he was single. However, he wasn't available. Sometimes when he joined us for meals or drinks, he would be a third party and sometimes he would bring a girl. The girls changed so often, I can't remember all their names, they were all so different, ranging from an Eurasian belly dancer in her thirties to a sweet Chinese 18 year old studying for her A levels from a good school. "He likes variety", Fred said, ' and he gets bored with them very fast, do you fancy him?' I'm not going to be one of his conquests to be discarded, I retorted, I have other admirers. Rake was smooth and witty like Fred, so I can understand when Fred said some of his discards were heartbroken or kept calling him, hoping to be taken back. Once Fred asked him to send me home in his swanky Mercedes 500 and he actually walked me up to my door. Give me a call if you tire of Fred, he teased, or if you want some secret exciting diversion, I must admit I didn't say no fast enough, and my stunned pause was enough for him to steal a quick parting kiss from my lips and walk away before I could react.

Fred and I often role play two men on one woman during sex and we would use a dildo vibrator to simulate the other man. I like this very much. A few times he asked during sex, if I would really want a threesome in real life and when I'm all excited , had had a few drinks, and am filled with lust, i would nod my assent, but when I'm sober and dressed up, I would say I'm too shy in front of a stranger. A few times, Fred had asked if Rake could do it for us but I had said no. Once he even said Rake liked my body but found me too argumentative. I said I can't be one of those bimbos who drape themselves all over him at dinner or drinks. Rake was too arrogant for me.

One Friday evening Fred and I were relaxing at our love nest near Orchard road. I had prepared one of his favorites, Bak Kut Teh, or pork ribs soup, which was  boiled till soft with Chinese herbs and
loads of garlic and pepper, and served with white steamed rice. After dinner, we had cuddled up on
the sofa, and were watching a  new Japanese xxx rated movie.  We were sipping Chivas Regal and
 the alcohol as usual had loosened my inhibitions and made me feel high and wanting to live life to the fullest. We  petted lazily side by side on the sofa. I was rubbing his cock with my left hand whilst he was rubbing my slit with his right, and we were watching a woman being gang raped by three men on screen. Now and then we would turn to each other to kiss and intertwine our tongues and lips. Soon, we were so aroused, we stopped watching porn and completely undressed to fuck on the sofa. Fred was being unusually rough as we had just been watching reluctant forced sex, and I loved it. Suddenly Fred's phone rang and as it was within reach, he answered it, with the speaker phone on. It was Rake. Hey Fred, what are you doing?  can I drop by for a while? I'm in orchard road and I'm between girls and I've nothing to do. I was bent over the coffee table with my breasts flat against the glass and wriggling my butt against his balls as he continued the pump me from behind as he spoke. I turned and shook my head vigorously to indicate No! But Fred replied, just watching tv with Stuly, come and join us. I had grabbed the remote and paused the video, hoping Rake hadn't heard the moaning on TV. Alright then, I'll be there in five, thanks! Five minutes didn't give us mch time, 'let's hurry Fred said and we carried  on but Fred pumped faster and I gyrated harder and as Fred jerked and pumped his semen into my cunt, the doorbell chimed. Fred laid back on the sofa and I sucked him dry, and then hurried into the bedroom to wash up while Fred dressed and opened the door for Rake. My cunt was still tingling and aching as I hadn't managed to cum so I locked the door and was rubbng myself to orgasm when Fred knocked on the door and called, we've got guests Stuly! Please come out! So I had to stop and dressed hastily. I brushed my hair, and redid my smeared lipstick, and
sprayed some perfume to mask the odor of sex, then I was out.

 Oh hi Rake, what an honor, I pretended, I thought you'll be out with some pretty young slut plastered all over you as usual. The honor is all mine, Stul, for to meet such a charming woman  like you, I'll gladly give up all the women in the world, he grinned, and he gave me an unwanted hug that was just
a bit too long. And his hands were too far down my waist, pressing my groin  into him as he gave me
a peck on the cheek. So did you get bored with your gf or get dumped again? Oh no, he flirted, I just prefer to see you tonite, he refused to admit defeat. Well, I'm not surprised, seeing how you treat your gf like dirt. You should try being nice. 'Oh no, you don't understand, Rake said, the more shabbily i treat them, the more they want me! It's like these materialistic chicks not wanting to be a member of a club that would accept them. That's why I like you, you don't seem like a gold digger, and the more you insult me , the more turned on I get! Oh dear, I said sarcastically, then I must compliment you, I won't want to get myself in your sights, I said. Please praise me as much as you want! Like how do I look tonight? He unbuttoned the top two buttons of his  body knit top to show off
his muscular chest. It was tanned and firm and hairy, and nice to look at. Mmmm, very sexy, I said as I gave him a clear top to bottom once over look with  my eyes  and continued sarcastically, oh dear! I can already feel my legs going soft in your alpha masculine presence. No fear! Rake riposted, I'm a hard man who can stop you from falling anytime, just stay close to me. He stepped close to me and pulled me against his chest. I tried to pushed him away but he was too strong so I relaxed, looked up into his eyes and said caustically , are you going to release me or are you going to rape me?  He let me go reluctantly and said, rape obviously,  but unfortunately Fred is here.

Did you call me? Fred walked over with a whisky for Rake, the two of you look very comfortable together, he said as he winked at me, he must have seen me in Rakes arms, so I said, you're here just in time to prevent a rape. No!No! Rake protested, with both arms up in the air, Stul said she felt soft in the legs so i caught her to prevent her from falling. It was just a misunderstanding. Ah! The gallant knight in shining armor! Fred enthused, he was in a good mood after a few whiskies and a good cum..
 oh yes! I said sardonically, he's as chilvarous as Sir Launcelot screwing his good friends (King Arthur's) wife. Ah! Fred exclaimed, I like the stories of Camelot and the knights of the round table. Rake piped in, singing, 'it's May! It's May! It's the lusty month of May', and something about going blissfully astray and  rolling in the hay, and looking at me all the time he sang. You've got sex on your mind and in every cell of your body, I murmured as I sipped my Chivas Regal. Who doesn't, he retorted, our cells are XY and yours  are XX that's all, and he drank from his glass too. No! Fred laughed, you are XX and we are triple XXX rated! We are all made to have as much sex as possible for pleasure so we can make babies, but the women aren't made so keen because they need someone to help look after the babies. Now we've cheated by getting the sex for free without  the babies, but the women still don't get realize they're free to fuck around now! I chipped in, no, I enjoy free sex fully as much as the men, if  sir Galahad comes along, and if you don't mind. I was into my fifth or sixth glass of whisky now, and this always loosens both my tongue and my sexual inhibitions, to be able talk frankly about sex in front of a third party. But I'll don't fancy arrogant male chauvinist pigs... I added, looking at Rake. Well, you should try fucking one, Rake replied cockily, you don't know what you're missing. My first was one, I said, now I prefer a gentleman like Fred. I put my head on Fred's shoulders as I said this. He's no gentleman, Fred exclaimed, he's someone else's husband! And they laughed but after that I was a little sad so I kept quiet and drank quite a bit more.  When they started talking about cars, I said I was drunk and excused myself and went into the bedroom and fell asleep.

Fred woke me up about 3 am to say goodbye. He had to go home to his family. Sleep with me till morning? I asked hopefully for the umpteenth time, I only get lucky once a month, but no, he says not tonight. We kissed and I went back to sleep. A short while later, I was woken by Fred cuddling into bed next to me. Oh good! You've changed your mind, I said sleepily without turning around as he cuddled against my back as I was lying on my side. I felt his penis harden into a full erection against my butt. You horny devil! I mumbled as he rubbed his cock up and down my buttocks cleft. A blindfold came over my eyes and was tightened. Naughty man, what  are you up to? He pulled my spaghetti straps off my night gown and grabbed my naked breasts with both hands and started to knead them while fingering my nipples. That's nice , Fred. I could feel that's Fred was already completely naked against my back. He pulled my gown up around my waist and I felt the bare contact of his hot cock against my butt. I pressed and gyrated my butt against him while he pumped his cock up and down my naked buttocks.........

Supper, stars, and sunrise and then back to reality

Good sex, good food, catching up with old friend and lover, isn't that what life is about? It doesn't mean I don't love Tom or that I'll won't be Toms best friend in his time of need. Now I'm satisfying an old friends need and mine. I refused to think of Tom. I was determined to have a good time tonite, so we ate and drank and chatted till closing time. I don't want the night to end yet, I told Fred, let's go to the reservoir. So we drove there and sat at the water edge, watching the stars until we doze off. We went back to my apartment, and this time I let Fred sleep with me in the bed I share with Tom. We slept till sunrise. When the sun rose, we fucked again for a third time and it was very good. I fried an omelette for Fred  and we ate it with bread. I am so happy to spend a whole night  with you Fred, it was wonderful, I said, but you have to go soon or I'll get caught, and I'll hurt Tom and Tim very much. If only we could always be together. Last time you have to run off to your family and now I have to go back to mine. I let you take me because I miss you and because you are such a wonderful lover, but my future is to build a home with Tom, and a loving family for Tim. It's too late for us. If we carry on, I can't control my heart, and I won't be able to concentrate on loving them, you'll win hands down but you won't be there for me. But it was so good last nite though, so I don't have any regrets doing it with you. What a wonderful memory you gave me. Will you remember me? I'll never forget you, Fred said, lets take a selfie photo together. He used his phone camera to snap a shot of us. Good bye. I sent him to the door and gave him a long passionate kiss. We promised to meet once a year to catch up. He wiped the tears from my cheek, and then he walked away.

I walked over to collect Tim. The everyday world I live in seemed strange again after 14 hours with Fred. Mummy, mummy, he called out happily when he saw me, and he ran and jumped into my arms. I hugged him and lifted him up and swung him around. I was so glad to see him, I miss you Tim, sorry about leaving you last nite, I said. I was back. To my home, and my family, and to my future. 

Tom returned in time to spend Christmas with us. With a kid Christmas is different. We set up a Christmas tree, bought toys and goodies, ate out, and then went home to sing some carols together. Tom would sing all his holy songs and I would sing the fun kids Christmas songs for Tim. While Tom was singing, I looked at him and thought, we are so happy together, why did I risk all this happiness of all of us for one night of pleasure. Yet the night of stolen bad pleasure had been so exciting and heart pounding. It was also me. This  Christmas nite was calm heart warming joy, very different, yet so peaceful. I wanted this too.

I am trying to make it up to Tom after this fling with Fred by being extra nice. If I can get up, I will go to a few boring church services with him. That always makes him happy. I started to take off his shoes when he come home after work, get him a drink, and give  him a shoulder and neck massage. I watched his English premier league soccer with him on Saturday nite. I am watching the soccer news online to study his favorite team so I can discuss soccer with him. I'm more interested in the soccer players personal lives and scandals, but Im also taking an interest in soccer tactics and strategy, so i can discuss the game better. A few of the soccer players are quite hunky and sexy......

Will Tom ever be able to love all of me? Can I ever show him that part of me that's slutty and lascivious and kinky? I don't think He can. He'll just see it as immoral and depraved. Yet he likes something about me enough to ignore  his Christian teachings which tells them to socialize within the church. I wonder what it is about me. My looks? My deceptively sweet innocent face? I don't appear a slut socially, it's only in bed. I'm not even warm and bubbly to strangers. Does he like me enough to accept my other nature? Can I wake up the steppenwolfe  in Tom so that we can have raw animalistic sex? . I'm there to be taken by him and had for free. Can Tom ever carelessly just fuck me silly the way a real man should? Im still young and attractive and I want to be taken now when people still want me.

I let Tom down to get fucked by Fred (3)

Fred pulled me by the hand into my bedroom and threw me on the bed. No! Not on our bed and in our bedroom, please! I pleaded. I want to save something for Tom. Can we do it in Tims room? No. Fred replied, I like to screw you in your  bedroom. Fred had me pinned down with his body weight so I couldn't escape. He slowly kissed his way down to my vulva and started licking my clitoris. I tried to get up to go to the other room, but he held me very tightly and continued lapping my slit which was very wet and swollen now. Let's go next door, and you can do anything you want with me, pleaseeee? I can't fuck another man  in front of my wedding photo up above the bed. Fred relented, but only if you agree to one more sex date. I was close to orgasm from Fred's skillful tongueing of my clit and could only nod my assent. Fred led me out to the sofa and sat down and put me on his lap, my back to him.

This is one of my favorite positions with him. I don't get it with Tom so I enjoyed it as much as I could.  I leaned forwards a bit to feel his cock rubbing against my g spot. It was great. Then I leaned to one side, and we kissed and tongued while his shaft pumped my vagina. When I got tired, I rested by laying back while he pressed my nipples and rubbed my slit at the same time.  When I felt Fred coming, I stopped gyrating and twisting myself  upon his cock but instead I reach down to stroke Fred's balls .I try to gyrate in rhythm with Fred as he pumps into me. We were very comfortable in this position and continued for a long time spicing it up with our usual dirty talk.

How's do you like my cock? Fred  asked. Very much Fred, it's so thick and hard, I love the feel of your thick shaft stretching me and piercing me. Harder Fred. Don't stop. How do I compare with Tom? Oh Fred! I said breathlessly, sex with you is ten times better than him! (True, unfortunately) And your cock is so much bigger than his!  His cock is small.(Lie). I missed your big cock so. I could feel Fred getting harder when I talk dirty. Do you know I masturbate thinking of you all the time?  I even think of you every time I'm fucking Tom!(lie) Will you be my sex slave and whore and do anything I ask you? Fred asked excitedly. Yes, I replied, when you are rubbing my clit like that, I become your slut, and I'll do anything you ask me to. Will you let me fuck you regularly? He asked. Yessss! Breathlessly. I almost came so please stop rubbing me for a while. Yes. I'll let you have your way with me when I'm free, when Tom isn't around, when I won't be caught.. (We hadn't fucked for two years when it became clear that Tom was the one for the rest of my life. I don't mean to keep these promises. I just want to enjoy this fuck and I'm not thinking. )  It's exciting to fuck you, Fred, after two years, it's like fucking some one new, and you are as good a stud as ever. I love you Fred. Don't stop. Do it to me. I love it when you go fast like that. Fred was humping me double quick and hard. I'm going to cum now Fred! Faster Fred! Do my nipples!  As Fred pressed my erect nipples, I twisted and pumped myself up and down his shaft, and I reached down to rub my clit. A few strokes and i came with the most prolonged and intense orgasm since my farewell fuck with Fred two years
ago. Oh, it's good Fred!  It's so good! I love you Fred! I love you very much! Oh I'm flying! Oh! Kiss me now! I turned and leaned  to kiss him and and then it was his turn.  I'm cumming Stuly! He grunted, cumming! His whole body tensed. Suddenly I remembered! Not inside me Fred, please , I'm fertile. Quick get out! Fred pumped me a few more times to get to the very brink and then he withdrew. I quickly got up and knelt down next to him, and continued to pump his shaft with one hand while I sucked the tip of his cock until he spurted into my mouth. Then I pulled him out and let him squirt the rest of his spunk on my lips and face. There was so much semen, I think he should not having much sex recently. We collapsed in each other's arms satiated and sweaty, and we lay down on the rug and dozed off.
                                     
                                                                      Epilogue

When I awoke it was half past eight. We had fucked for two hours and slept for half an hour. .I was lying sideways with my face against Fred's chest. Fred was lying on his back and sound asleep. I looked down on his soft cock. To tease him, I decided the best way to wake him up was to wake his cock first. I reached down to gently cup his balls and stroke the base of his cock. His cock slowly rose up and when it was at half mast, I held the top half of his shaft and slowly massaged it till it was hard. I put my face close to Fred, and when he opened his eyes, I kissed him on the lips and stroked his cock harder. He gave me a long full leisurely  kiss and caressed one breast in his hand and began to squeeze and thumb my nippple. His cock was rock hard now. He rolled me over him and kissed me while he tried to enter me but couldn't. I reached down to guide him into my wet cunt. He started to pump into me with slow long deep strokes. This was going to be a lazy relaxed sex. We kissed and tongued while he thrust up into me, and I went on my knees so I could rock in rhythm with his thrusts. I like him grabbing my butt and stretching my cunt and rubbing the sides of my labia. Sometimes, for novelty, he would put one finger into my anus.

I really miss you Stuly. I know I shouldn't do this to you but I can't forget your kisses and your body. You are so sweet and beautiful. So nice to me, and your sex is like an undemanding free gift. You never forced me. I miss you too Fred, but I want someone there for me all the time, and you wont leave your wife and I didn't want to ask then and I won't ask now. Let's not think about anything but right now when were together, we just try to be happy? I silenced him by kissing him, and moving up and down his shaft with longer strokes. I'm all wet now and the feel of his ridged circumcised cock against my labia and clit is good. I sit up on him and grind my clit against his hairy pubis. He reaches up and strokes my breasts and nipples gently. I put my hands behind my back as though I'm tied up and push my breasts forwards to him. My hands fondle his balls. I ride him until I cum. I'm cumming Fred! It feels so good. Love you Fred. Then I cum. Shortly after, Fred arches and stiffens , and his balls contractions accelerate,and I know he is close. I speed up my pumping and when he is completely stiff from holding back. I get off him and go down on him, pumping his shaft and opening
my mouth wide so his cock can slide up and down my tongue. He ejaculates  all over  my lips and cheeks again. Then we relaxed with my head against his belly. I watch his cock soften as I fall asleep.

Wake up Stuly! It's way past nine! Fred shook me gently. And you must be hungry. We got up and I took Fred by the hand and led him to my bedroom attached bath where we showered together. Like in old days, I soaped him all over, armpits, penis, testicles, sensually, giving his cock, which was still slightly swollen special loving attention. It hardened to a full erection, so I stroked it for a long time, laughing, you are one sex crazy man. I don't have much sex at home, you see, and it's mostly crsppy sex, and I'm thinking of you while I'm at it. Then it was my turn to be soaped and he made sure my nipples were erect by the time he finished and rubbed my clit till I was wet again. By the time we stepped out of the house it was ten. I called my mum in law and mumbled something about being held up by my friends and that I won't be taking Tim back tonite. Then Fred and I drove to my favorite late night restaurant for supper.

To be continued......

Date with ex lover Fred gets out of control (2)

Thats not good in the long run, Fred said, not good for your relationship nor for your sex life. Why don't you let him know a bit at a time, so many men would love to have someone as free as you in bed. I did try, I replied, I showed him some xxx movies I lied my friends sent me as a teasing wedding present, but he said it's disgusting and immoral. I've never met another man who had such a strong objection to porn. How do I tell him I've done every single one of those disgusting things, and enjoyed it a lot  as well? It's his family and his church. They've made him think sex is dirty or only for making babies. So far the only thing I've succeeded is for him to accept blow jobs from me. Even then, I live I fear I'll be condemned as a whore and lose his respect for me. Definitely, he's not going to give me any blow jobs. Most of all, I wish we could play at sex the way you and I do. It will be so much more fun if only he will relax and explore a bit.

Anytime you want some of the old fun, as long as there is life in this body of mine, I'm game, Fred chuckled, and thinking of your fabulous blow jobs makes so jealous of Tom. He's a luckier man than me for sure. Am I really that good? I replied, maybe you haven't been around enough. Nope, Fred said, you're definitely the best in bed of all the girls I've ever loved, I had a huge withdrawal reaction and depression two years ago when you left. Life has been dull and unexciting since. Nah, I laughed, that's what you would say until the next sexy young girl comes along, I know you for the lusty old man you are, you wouldn't give up on me even though I turned you away so many times. But after you seduced me, I found you are such a good lover, I couldn't bear to give you up. I'm also jealous just thinking how your next girlfriend will enjoy what I no longer can.

There's no need to get jealous, Fred said, I'm always available for your pleasure any time. Fred grabbed my hand and put it to his chest. You will always be in here, in my heart, a part of me forever. I'll never forget you and I'll always miss you. Are you serious? I asked, you should just forget me and
go back to your wife. And I should do the same. I tried to pull my hand back but Fred used both hands to hold on to mine. I miss your sweet smile with those incredibly cute dimples, my chilli padi! (small but spicy chilly). And your sweet lips that gave me so much pleasure. Fred started kissing the back of my imprisoned hand. I can't forget the exquisite pleasure your dainty hands gave me either, Fred said as he started caressing the back of my hand. His touch felt smooth and sensual. Please don't, I pleaded, but Fred started caressing my forearm gently. It's not right Fred, I'm married! I protested, but Fred grabbed my other hand and brought both to his lips. He kissed them both  as he Looked into my eyes and said, I love you so much, Stuly, give me a hug for old times sake. I found it hard to refuse and let him pull me against his chest, my hands up against his muscular chest whilst he put his arms around me. It felt warm and good. It's been so long since I held you, Stuly, he whispered tenderly into my ear, and started kissing my cheek gently. This was so wrong, I tried to push him away, but he held me very firmly, and trailed his kisses along my cheek closer and closer to my lips. Don't! Please don't! I pleaded, I want to be faithful to.....he covered my lips with his and silenced me mid sentence.

Fred started crushing his lips against mine, I kept my mouth pursed shut, but it still felt good. Tom had been away for two weeks and I haven't had a real man so forceful for a very long time. I pushed him back and cried Stop! Please! I can't.... but he pulled me in against him strongly and rubbed our lips together again. He tried to put his tongue in my mouth but I closed mine tightly. I shooked my head side to side to protest but Fred wouldn't let me go a midst my continued muffled protests and pushing at his chest. He was too strong for me. It was useless. Suddenly he stopped. I'd let you go if you give me one full kiss. One last kiss. ok? Just one good one and I'll stop, he promised. I miss your kiss so much, and it will be something for me to remember you by. I hung my head helplessly and nodded, ok, just once, I said, hoping to get it over with fast but Fred had other ideas. He took my arms from his chest and placed them around his neck, then he put both his arms around my waist. My
short blouse rode up a bit so his arms were in contact with my bare waist. I couldn't help savoring the
contact of muscular arms rubbing against my smooth waist. He put his face close to mine, I looked up
but closed my eyes. Open your eyes he commanded, and I obeyed, looking at him through my eyelashes. Come closer and touch your lips to mine, he ordered. I didn't move. Do it now! Or else it doesn't count. So reluctantly, I approached his lips and gently touched my lips to his. We rubbed for  awhile and he nibbled at my lips. After forever, he tried to insert his tongue into my mouth but I wouldn't open. It's not a Full kiss if you don't have tongue action, he paused to say, so I had to open my mouth and his tongue was in. It was like the old days again, tongue playing, and at first I kept still,  but out of old reflexes and habit, and out of my growing sexual arousal, I started to lick his tongue back, and soon our tongues were intertwining and playing like in the old days, and sometimes he withdrew and let me enter his mouth. He would do something for me and then it was my turn to return the favour. He licked my lips, nibbled them, bit them gently, and then I did it back.

Meanwhile his hands were caressing my back and sides, then one handed wandered to my legs and rubbed the sensitive inside of thighs. With all the wriggling, my miniskirt had ridden up high and gave him easy access. Stop! I told him as I grabbed his wrist. Kiss only. So he stopped but we continued to kiss. My head was spinning as I focused on the pleasurable sensations and feelings coming from my lips and tongue. I was floating and time stood still so I believe we were kissing for maybehalf an hour, when he started to kiss and nibble my neck. It's still just a kiss, he mumbled as he started downwards, so I let him. He kissed and nibbled my necks and then started giving me little nips and bites on my neck. It was nice, so I couldn't help involuntarily arching my neck backwards to give Fred full access to my neck and my upper chest. He kissed, nibbled and bit his way down to between my breasts and then used his teeth to bite my zipper and pull open my blouse. Then he was onto my breasts. It felt good and my heart was pounding with excitement. Oh Fred, could you please stop and let me go? Please? I don't want to carry on. I want to save myself for Tom. The full kiss will be over soon, Fred spoke hoarsely with his own excitement. Fred pulled one shoulder of my blouse off and pulled my bra down. On every breast spilled out. Noooo! Please don't! I whispered breathlessly, but Fred now grabbed the exposed breast with one hand and gave his full attention to my nipple, one of my sexual hotspots. I moaned and groaned with pleasure softly,  mmmmmmmm, and arched my breast against his lips. He was rubbing my nipple with his moustache and beard. I was losing  control of my body and my desires and I wanted him to carry on.  But my guilt made me say, please stop, I can't do this, it's bad. What if Tom finds out?

Fred was merciless. The kiss is not over yet, he said brusquely. He pulled my other shoulder strap and bra down so now both my breasts were fully exposed and he started to pinch and twirl my nipples with both hands and his mouth. ohhhhh! I moaned softly, it felt so good, hurry up and finish the kiss, please, Fred, I pleaded, but Fred continued to work my breasts and nipples so exquisitely that I didn't want to stop, and didn't resist at all when Fred started stroking my thighs again, he move down his hand up and up my thigh, and I marked my total surrender by opening my legs to let his hand  in. He
started rubbing my clitoris gently and said, you're so wet, Stuly, I love how you respond to me. He rubbed my clit the way he knew I like it, and much better than Tom, and it's been such a long time since I had hot sex, and two weeks without Tom, so I was lusty for Fred. Within minutes, I arched and gyrated and ground my pelvis against Fred's hands. The kiss is over, Fred teased, do you want me to stop? I kept quiet. Shall I stop? He asked again. And stopped completely. No, I surrendered
again, please don't stop, I want you. But what about Tom? Fred gloated. I, I love Tom, but I also want
you. Fred continued working on my sensitive nipples and circling my clitoris with the tip of his
finger, but like in old days, he would pause as soon as he sense me coming and switched to finger
fucking me instead.  After he brought me to the edge of climax a few times, he stopped and said, the kiss is over, what  do you want me to do now? I want your  cock inside me, please. Im about to cum, I said meekly.

Not so fast, Stuly, Fred said, you've got to work for your cum. Take my cock out he commanded me. I unzipped his trousers and pulled down his underwear. His hard and thick cock sprung out..I started to rub his shaft up and down while we went back to kissing and he continued to stroke my clitoris. After  we were both high, he stopped me and stood up from the sofa, standing in front of me. Take my cock  and suck it! He orders me. I am so sexually aroused now,  I wanted to carry on this exciting adventure despite my love for Tom. This is life, I waned to live it up now.   Once again, Fred's rugged old knobby veined cock with its purple circumcised head was in front of me. Its so big and hard and strong , I said, as he stepped forwards and brought his glans against my lips. The smell of Fred's cock is stimulating for me. I hold on to his hips and stick my tongue out to lick his glans while I gently kissed over the congested head with my lips which I moistened by first licking my lips. I slowly encircle his cock head with my lips several times then I I purse my mouth small and pop my lips over his glans and then withdraw. When I withdraw, I tug gently at the coronal sulcus or groove behind his cock. I d this for a few minutes to warm him up, remembering to glance  up and make eye contact with him often. After that I start to go down on his cock a bit more,  hugging his shaft with my lips but gyrating my head as I slowly pump my head up and down his shaft. I slowly take him deeper and deeper, getting used  to it so I don't gag. After a few minutes, my slow pumping has brought his glans t the back of my throat.  His cock  is too big for me to reach  all the way down to his pubic bone with my lips. I use one hand to gently cradle his testicles and stroke them. I pump faster until I sense from Fred's body tension and from his scrotal contractions that Fred was about to cum, then I pull out and use my hand to grab his cock but circle around his glans firmly with my thumb. This always stops Fred  from  cumming but my thumb action is still pleasurable according to him. I bring Fred back and forth from the edge of orgasm this way, until he can no longer hold back, then I stopped completely. Fred ordered me to do a strip dance for him.

I had gone for both belly dancing, lap dancing and pole dancing courses when Fred and I were together. He had sent me for the classes to make me a better lover so this was a practiced routine. I stood up and started to gyrate my hips and body while I pulled off his shirt. Then I licked my lips as I continued to dance and give him side long glances.,always looking down at his body and cock as well to make him feel desired. I caress my breast and finger my nipple with one hand and stroked my slit with the other hand as I danced and mimicked an orgasm while making light moans. I enjoyed it. This is what women were meant to be, to make their men want them, to seduce them. I slowly removed my clothes as I danced and wriggled out of my mini skirt but left my g string and my high heels on as Fred likes it. As  I dance, I actually rub my clit to  keep myself  high and Fred was also rubbing his cock. He sat down on a chair and I gyrated my way slowly towards him. May I dance for you?  I asked breathlessly. Yes, I'll book you for the night, if you're good. I stood in front of him and danced as I played with my breasts, they are much bigger then when we last had sex becos of my breast feeding, I'm proud of them. I straddle him and rock my butt riund and round on his thighs whilst he grabbed my breasts roughly with both hands and sucked on a nipple.i arched back with pleasure. I hold on to his shoulders and lower myself v slowly onto the head of his cock. Once in, I gyrated
around his cock head teasingly but didn't let him go deep but after all his caressing of my breasts, my desire was so great, I let him pull me down onto his shaft, then I started gyratung and pumping up
and down on his cock, enjoying the tight feeling of his cock rubbing against my vaginal lips and the deep fullness as I've never experienced with Tom.    He grabbed my face and we restarted our French kissing and lap fucking till my legs tired and I had to stop. He took my hand and brought me back to the sofa. I want to fuck your face now, he said. I sat on the floor leant back on the sofa and put my head back on the sofa. He leant over me and put his hands on the top of  He back of the sofa and I put my hands up against his thighs. I opened my mouth and let him use my mouth as a vagina. He started with long deep strokes until I gagged and then gave me a few seconds to catch my breath then he restarted. It's  something for Fred's ego that not only do I let him abuse me this way but that I get turned on by it. I like to be used like a sex toy by him. He pumps me until I'm giddy with suffocation then he stops. Let's go to the bedroom he pulls me up by the hand and leads me to the bed I share with Tom. No! Please don't! It's Toms bed! But Fred insists, exactly, I want to take Toms place. He drags me into the room. I'm still giddy from the deep throat fucking and am too weak to resist him. He throws me on the bed.......

To be continued.....

a happily married woman flirts with Fred

I'm happily married with a husband who loves me very much and treats me very well. He is working very hard and doing well enough so I don't have to work but can be a mother and lady of leisure at home. If I have the luxury of being a bit bored, or if Tom is too tired to play, I shouldn't complain. And I don't complain. But that's not enough. I shouldn't be thinking of other men when I'm masturbating. That's really ungrateful. I shouldn't be attracted to other men I meet and I shouldn't look at them in a sexual way,  but I do all these. I enjoy being noticed by other men. It's exciting and enjoyable. I've tried meditation, exercise, and cold showers, but every now and then, I'm burning with desire to be touched , stroked, caressed, grabbed and taken, and penetrated by a man. I'm highly sexed and I like adventure, novelty, variety, playfulness.

Fred has all of these, so  I'm meeting him for dinner when my husband is away on a conference, while he is working hard so I can stay at home with baby and be relaxed and fresh . It's totally wrong. I'm don't deserve Tom. I'm just a low down low class slut from a broken family whic ant study and whose only redeeming feature is her looks. I was probably a willing whore and a happy hooker in my past life who got so very lucky in this present reincarnation.

So why am I looking forward to meet Fred so much? I've brought Tim with the maid to my in laws flat nearby and now I'm back in my room changing. I can't decide what to wear. I want Fred to look at me and admire me like before. I'm using his favorite floral perfume from L'occitane and his favorite light pink lip gloss. I apply mascara to my lashes. I decide I want him to desire me. My breasts are much bigger now because of my breastfeeding so I want to show them off. I matched a push up bra with a drapy light white cotton  sleeveless blouse with black prints. The blouse has a zipper front, and I pull it down half way to show some breast. The mini skirt is barely mid thigh and I wear a three inch black heels and a narrow black choker. I'm barely finished when the door bell rings.

Hi Stuly! You look as pretty as before! Fred rewards my preparation. He gives me the once over look and inhales loudly,  but returns his gaze to my face and exclaims, but sexier than before! I smile widely and  look at his rugged tanned face, taking in his long sleeved shirt with rolled up sleeves and denim jeans. You look good too, and trim as ever! He steps in close to me and gives me a warm hug. I feel his strong arms round my waist and I feel attracted once again. Fred continues, It's so good to see you again, I really miss you, and your smile. Really? I thought you'd be chasing some cute  young chick soon after I left you. Fred held my bare shoulder with his warm hand, looked me in the eye, and said seriously, yes, I fooled around when I was young, but you are my first after I got married, and you will be the last, because nobody can be better than you. I'm so happy I gave him a very broad and warm smile, I missed you very much too, i said, if only.... but Tom treats me really well and I'm very happy. He gave me  another hug, a longer one, and it felt good. I didn't want the hug to end.

I get you a drink? Waters fine. I give him his drink and sit down next to him on the sofa. I like your flat, he says, just like in your old flat, I always feel very comfortable in your home. I get a flashback of the many afternoon delights we enjoyed in my bedroom on my bed in my old home. How come we are so cold and distant now? Great, I said, many things need to be improved but I've not gotten down to it because of Tim. I suddenly become very aware we are a man and a woman alone together in a private room and I feel his maleness very strongly. It's a quiet moment. We look at each other.

How have you been? He spoke warmly and very tenderly to me and closed the distance between us with 4 short words. I've been very lucky, Tom is good to me, and then there is Tim, I don't think I'm a very concerned mother, but he keeps me busy. How about you? You ok? Biz is bad, but I can retire off the rent from my few properties, you know, you used to help me with the leasing. Kids are very independent now, and my wife is as busy as ever with her high profile corporate job. We are a bit closer after you left but nothing great....

You should try and patch up with your wife better. After all, it wasn't only the kids that tied you down right? You cared enough for them to not want to hurt any of them. That's why today I'm with Tom and not with you. So what's the point if you don't make up? Fred replied, frowning, you're right of course, but she's very hard. It's the ruthless and cynical world of finance that makes her so. I wish she would change to a lighter job. Every time we have a smooth patch and our relationship is building up, she will spoil it all by going berserk over little things, threaten divorce, and reset us back to zero again. She is never wrong, whereas with you, no matter how bitter our fights, it's never the end of us,  and you don't threaten a breakup, you are in tears and feeling helpless in your anger and then I think of your father leaving you as a child, and then I feel bad for you and then I want to make up. The difference is I see her as an ugly person when we fight and just trying to win whereas with you, I see someone just trying to fight for her rights to my time and attention, yet with a certain dignity, so you are actually attractive when we argue , because it shows  that you care a lot.

Really? I still look good frowning and with my makeup and mascara all smudged? I smiled. Yes, he smiled back broadly, and very sexy. Remember how so many if our fights ended up in bed because you look so desirable when you're so engaged. Really? I'm so angry that I always thought how could you still want to have sex. I thought you just wanted runaway from the problem, to distract me and to shut me up or to punish me, or to humiliate me, because the sex is always rough when you're angry.

No, Stuly, after fighting,I actually suddenly find you very desirable, and also I find  your hurting so pitiful that I want to soothe you. In fact, found it amazing that I could still have my way with you....Well, I replied, blushing, I took it that you  wanted to make up but like the brute caveman, you couldn't find the words to express it, so I let you. Why couldn't you have said those nice things you just said then? Maybe I would have been more willing to remain your  mistress and your no. 2. And why after a fight, there's so much oral sex, I thought you just wanted to stuff my mouth with your cock to shut me up, I giggled as I said this. Not really, but that's a good idea, it's just that when We argue, I look at your face a lot, and when decide I don't want you to hurt anymore, I keep looking at your lips as you talk, and I remember how much pleasure they can give. I laughed, remembering his expressive groans as I worked studiously on his cock with my lips and tongue and fingers. You know I love rough sex, I replied, so I enjoyed our angry sex very much. I always cum and the furious face fucking and the breathless deep throating I receive always turned me on. I didn't get enough rough sex then and now I don't get any at all. Maybe I should have made you angry more often.

It's not too late, Fred teased, let me make you angry now. I laughed and looked him in the eye fondly, and flashed at quick glance down on his crotch, he had a very obvious erection tenting his jeans. Don't tell me you aren't getting enough sex from your wife, I asked, pointing at Fred's erection. No, he said, and even when I do , I'm still imagining it's you I'm fucking. That's no good! I said, it's been two years already since we broke up. Don't do this. Fred said, its your fault partially, because sex with you is so much more fun than with my wife, I missed having sex with you so much. How about you? How's sex with Tom? (I'm used to telling Fred about my sexual adventures when we were having an open relationship as he wouldn't marry me and I needed to see if I could find someone else). Not so good. Boring but sweet. Nothing compared to you, I can't help comparing when you're such a good lover. But I usually don't think about you when I am having sex with Tom, and nowadays even when I'm masturbating except this afternoon...Toms been away and you called right when I was rubbing my clit, and after your call, I couldn't help thinking of our massage sex together when I continued masturbating. Does that make you happy?

Yes. Very, Fred replied. Think of me more when you're masturbating. Yes, in fact, why not call me for some dirty talk while you masturbate? Noooooo.. I can't do that. That would be unfair to Tom. Yes, tempting but unfair, besides you know I can't control myself once I get started and you will take take advantage and I'll probably end up going all the way. No. unless Tom divorces me, then you will get your no strings attached sex from me again. I love you fucking me and I still find you very attractive but I can't do this to Tom...Is Tom thinking of divorcing you, Fred asked? No, not in any way at the moment, but I've been pretending to be his angelic wife, and he's very religious and conservative, and when he finds out about my sexual past and what I'm really like, when he finds out that I'm just a low down  lusty slut with a cunt for a brain, and all the dirty things I've enjoyed being done to me by so many men, I'm very afraid he will find me disgusting and unacceptable....

To be continued.

Masturbating with Fred in mind (part2)

im now on my bed rubbing my clitoris and my breast and thinking of Fred. I pretend it's Fred's hands on my clitoris and imagine his naked body and his throbbing cock. I'm so wet I don't resist when Fred opens my legs and and starts finger fucking me. He takes my hand and puts it on his cock and pumps my hand up and down. I resist but he keeps finger fucking me and on the fourth try I'm so horny, I start to massage his cock. He stops and walks over to the head of the massage bed and starts massaging my breasts. His cock and balls is just above my head, tantalizing me. I push my self past the edge of the bed so I can bend my head backwards and now my opened mouth is ready to receive his cock. He obliges me. I love the rubbery feel of his glans as it glides past my lips and onto my tongue. I like the feel of his shaft rubbing in and out of my lips with a deep slow stroke. I can see the bottom of his cock and his balls and it excites me very much.

I take out my dildo vibrators from my secret locked drawer and suck one of them, thinking of how Fred's cock looked like. Then I take another vibrator and put it deep inside my vagina. It has a clitoral stimulator and the base has ball bearings that rotate. I turn it in and tie it over my neck with the attached strings, now I pretend that Fred is fucking my mouth whilst the Thai masseur is fucking my cunt. I can feel the Thai masseur's thick cock stretching and sliding and and out through the lips of my vagina. He fucks me with long strokes with a twist the end as he rams it home. Then he withdraws it till his rubbery head almost pops out and it rubs and stretches against my inner lips before he slides in again. The feeling is great and my body soon gyrates in rhythm as I try to to time my pelvic thrusts upwards to meet him as hewithdraws and come slamming in. I finger myself as he fucks me. Within minutes I cum long and hard and I imagine both of them cumming in my cunt and mouth at the same time. The pleasure is so intense and it's a very long orgasm.  I'm completely relaxed and satisfied.

It's been a few months since I had such an intense and pleasurable  orgasm because I've been trying to remain faithful to Tom. I've been undone by a phone call from Fred that unfortunately came when I was masturbating. I didn't mean to cheat. But I haven't done anything, it's just a fantasy so I've not really been unfaithful, right ?

I'm going to meet Fred for dinner. I changed my mind about my dress. I decided to wear a short miniskirt and high heels just for the excitement.p of flirting a bit. But I'm not going to be unfaithful.

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a masturbation that went astray with a masseur

Tom, my husband, is away on conference again for a fortnight. He's been away a week but I can't wait another week to be in his arms again. I tried to talk him into phone sex and he tried to oblige me a bit but he wasn't keen or was too tired or too busy. After he hung up, I felt my whole skin burning with the desire to be touched and caressed. I am sitting on the bed and I was wearing a slightly short night gown and I put my hand between my legs and touched myself within my slit. When I took my hand up to see, my fingers were covered with a sticky slimy clear mucuswhich stretched between my fingers. I get wet easily and have never been too dry to have sex.
I took Toms photo from my bedside table with one hand and started rubbing my slit through my panties and thinking of his cock sliding in and out of me from behind while we lie sideways on the bed. I took off my bra and pulled off my silky neglige. I put his photo down. With one hand, I cupped my breast and gently rolled my nipple the way Tom does for me when I ask him to. With my other hand, I pull my g string aside (I always dress sexily in an understated way as Tom doesn't like slutty), and start to rub my clitoris in a very gentle, circular motion until I'm thoroughly soaked with juices and my nipples are erect.i got very aroused, and my hand on my nipple starts to squeeze and grab  my breast as well as roam all over my body. I close my eyes and think of Tom naked, skin against my skin. The pleasure radiates from my clitoris to my whole body. I writhe and rub myself against the smooth bedsheets. I let our little mews and sighs of pleasure, and arch and gyrate my body.  I turn sideways so I can enjoy seeing myself masturbate in the large mirror. I've masturbated myself to orgasm this way many times. It's often more physically pleasurable than having sex with Tom himself but I still rather be in Toms arms.

Today, however, as I was tensing up to my orgasm, the phone rang. Hello Stuly, how have you been? It was Fred, my ex lover of many years. Hiiii! I'm fine, I'm feeling good, long time no hear from you, how's everything with you, I gushed with deep feeling. You ok? Oh sure, Fred replied, I've got a bit of a lull in the shopping business, same as everyone else, but I'm ok, don't have to close shop yet but heartless landlord wants to raise rent. So I'm quite free and thought why not catch up with my baby Stuly. It's like less than once a year? The last I saw you was at your baby one month celebration and before that was your wedding. Yes! I said happily, happy to hear Fred's voice again, we did promise to remain friends forever and meet up once a year and we should, it's due, just that I've been so focused on doing up my home and then my baby came, so busy,  and getting used to living with Tom and to in laws.....How about this evening? Fred asked. Dinner? Sure, if I can get my mum or Toms mum to babysit. Most likely can. It's a good time because I've stopped working and Toms not in town. Six? Fred asked. I'll pick you up from your home or wherever you are then. Yes, I said, from my home, but let me pay just this once, please? Since business is bad for you. I know you can afford, but let me pay for good luck to you. Ok ok, my baby has grown up into a wonderful woman in front of my eyes, Fred laughed, why did I ever let you go? I should have been selfish and strung you along as my mistress forever. Yes, why didn't you? I didn't ask for anything from you, you know, (I hardened as i was suddenly stirred deep inside my heart, it's hard to remain casual as  friends with an ex lover). Why didn't you finish what you started?

After he hung up, i paused in reminiscence of my ex, then decided what I was going to wear, something in between. Something discrete as befits a married woman, and yet show a bit of shoulder, neck and thigh. I've a sleeveless yellow dress that's mid thigh length but sexy as the elasticity of the material helps in hugging the curves of my breasts, waist and butt.


I lay down and went back to masturbating but now I couldn't keep Tom in my sexual fantasy. Fred's face kept coming up instead. I couldn't cum. I surrendered to the images and memories of exciting sex with Fred that flooded back easily.......so many years ago, we were role playing one of his sexual
fantasies y, Fred's so playful and inventive when it came to sex. We were in our love apartment and  I
had just told him how my gang of girls had gone to Bangkok and watched a duck show, not one about ducks but with hunky male models performing a strip tease. We were very young and wild then. After that, we signed up for an expensive massage, and one of us actually went all the way with the handsomest. My masseur was quite attractive too and I let him strip me completely and massage my breasts and buttocks and let him come very close to my slit but when he touched my clitoris, I chickened out and grabbed his wrist and said no even though I was dripping wet. When my friend told me she had had sex, I kind of regretted not having an adventure story to tell more than regret not having let the very muscular man fuck me. So when I told Fred about the adventure, I made it more exciting but didn't want to tell Fred anymore to keep him intrigued. I lied that he was only wearing swimming trunks and  that I got a chance to feel his hard six pack abds. I lied that I could see the masseurs huge rock hard erection poking above his trunks and that I let him stroke my clitoris till I was soaking wet, and after that 'it's too embarrassing, I'm not telling you anymore!'

After that, I ran and Fred chased me down but I refused to tell him to this day. He caught me at the sofa and made me kneel while he fucked me hard afrom behind, slapping my butt and scolding me in mock anger, Tell me you low class slut, did you get fucked by the masseur? In between moans of pain and pleasure, i replied, what do you prefer me to be? That's what I'll be but I'm not telling you what happened. He grabbed me by the hair and forced me down and throat fucked me so hard I couldn't breathe and almost fainted. But no matter how breathless he made me, when he pulled back to let me have air, I refused, absolutely refused to let him know whether or not I got fucked. Fred made me kneel down again saying that he needs to inflict more pain to force me to confess. I'm going to rip your anus unless you confess, he threatened. No! Please! I'll confess. I'll say anything you want me to, ipleaded.  I used my hands to pull my butt apart to stretch my anus bigger so it won't hurt. It's too tight Fred, something will rip! Fred pierced me painfully and started to pump me. It was so tight, I screamed in pain. No! Please no! I'll talk! Sometimes I'll say I got fucked, sometimes ill say I chickened out. Fred's cock was much harder when I said I got screwed, so I finally said I'm sorry , I couldn't help myself. After the masseur licked my pussy I became putty for him to do with as he liked and I spent the rest of my holiday being his sex slave. With that, Fred came in hard and long into my soaking cunt.

I'm all wet now, thinking of Fred, I know it's wrong but just a little bit of fantasy won't hurt, right? .So in our role play sex, Fred often likes to act as the Thai masseur I encountered in Bangkok. Once we booked a wonderful massage couple spa at the rooftop of Changi Meriden hotel. It's got two massage beds but there's an outdoor jacuzzi overlooking changi point where we can enjoy thebpview naked but can't be seen. We tell the masseuses they are not needed and we have two hours alone. He wants to be the masseur who seduced me into sex. .i pretend that I'm holidaying with fred and he's in
the hotel room reading not realizing I'm going to be seduced by a he man with a gorgeous muscular body to die for (not too thick, I prefer lean men). He's only wearing a g string and he's tanned and showing off his abds. After the usual face down massage, I'm asked to remove my bra so he can do my back. His hands go up and down the side of my breasts. He does this standing at the head of the bed so his erect cock is very near my head. Then he goes to my legs and soon Fred's hands are on my butt and massaging hard. His hands creep up and spread my legs apart. No please don't, I said, my boyfriend is in the hotel. Don't worry, Fred said, ive locked the door so he won't find out. It's wring I
said, but made no effort to close my legs. Fred massaged my legs starting with my ankles and calves to thigh and now he was rubbing up against  my crotch. He dipped into my slit and starting to rub up and down. I moaned softly.

Turn around Fred commanded. I turned to face the ceiling with my eyes closed. Fred massaged my naked breasts and twisted my nipples till they were hard and erect. Then he massaged from my calves to my thighs and finally to be slit, getting nearer and nearer till his fingers touched my clitoris. I put my hand on his and said  No! It's not  right, but Fred, kept stroking my clitoris. Each time I would let him and rub a little longer before asking him to stop. Stop, Fred, please? It's wrong . But Fred kept going at my clitoris till the pleasure was intense enough for me to start gently moaning and writhing.fred pulled my legs apart and I didn't resist but said No, Fred, please don't. He starting gently finger fucking me over my uselesss protests. Soon it was an all out three finger attack on my pussy and I was doing pelvic thrusts to meet his pumps. I had been conquered by my masseur.

To be continued.

Angry sex

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Just read this on Kinkly. A woman shares her feeling about sex when her partner is angry with her.

I've had quite a few angry quarrels that ended with my lover punishing me by using me as his sex toy. One was a brutal rape that ended with me surrendering with an orgasm and getting called a slut for being able to have one while being raped. On other occasions it was just mental coercion into demeaning sex, whippings, beatings, humiliation, punishment, bondage and submission? It's a complex emotion. When my lover is very very angry with me, it also means he is very passionate about me, his connection to me is total. I like that 100 percent focus on me, except that I wish he was just as passionate when he is very pleased with me. If I'm to blame to some extent, I somehow internalize his anger and take his side. Some sort of sexual Stockholm syndrome. I get angry with myself and part of me wants to help him to punish me. I empathize with his anger and want to help him get his revenge. I hate myself the way he hates me. I'm just wired that way. Sometimes, I've won the battle of words but my lover refuses to give in and wins by dominating me sexually and forcing me to retract. The best way to shut my mouth is with his cock and with his semen all over my face, his victory is complete, but my feminine nature is to submit and lose out completely. I even cum sometimes but am sexually aroused by my degradation often. This is totally at odds with my personality in public when I can be very hot tempered and uncompromising.