Yoga to control my sexual desire part 2

I've been trying to control my sexual desires by jogging and yoga but was unfortunate to run I to the arms of a seductive yoga instructor. Our last lesson together just erupted my sex hormones. Please see part 1.

I can do a split but my arms can't support me in midair. So he made me sit facing him while I did my split then put my arms behind my back to push up. I couldn't do it so he sat under me with his hands under my buttocks and lifted me up and then placed me on his crotch. Through hsi trousers I could feel the rubbery tip of his cock fitting into my wide open vulva. As I was only wearing shorts and a g string, I was being stimulated sexually as he lifted me up and down into his cock. I could only stare into his eyes with lust and he was staring into mine greedily too. After that he made me sit with my back to him. I did a split again and he held my thighs up whilst he put my hands behind me around his neck. Again another few minutes of up and down upon his cock which was thrusting up through his trousers with a wet spot made by his semen and my cunt secretions. He was very strong and could support my weight. A thought flashed through my mind what wonderful sex I could have with him and so many exciting new yoga positions I've never tried.

By now I was all putty in his hands and he realized that I had given myself to him completely. So his hands were constantly touching my breasts with hardly anypretence at any positions and i was letting him do as he pleased. I was saying no, no, don't do this or that , I'm married, but I  still let his have his way with me, woth only token resistance. We were almost fucking with clothes on in the yoga room and completely drenched with sweat. I arched with my belly facing the ceiling and my arms and legs on the floor, but with my back up. He would rub my belly and occasionally go under my shorts towards my vulva until I protested, but he kept doing it again and again and getting closer and closer till he reached my clitoris. I was defenceess in that position. He would rub my buttocks every now and then pretending to support my body . Then the wheelbarrow where my legs gripped his waist while I Supported myself with my hands. He would grab my hips and press me against his crotch. We also did the reverse wheel barrow where I was facing the ceiling and arched back so I can touch the floor with my hands, while he held my buttocks against his crotch and he would gyrate a bit and grind his cock into my vulva.

We stopped when someone from the next lesson entered the room. I was arched backwards on my knees facing the ceiling with my hands backwards trying to hold my ankles and he was kneeling astride in front of my upside down face lifting my back up so I could see and smell his balls and cock at close range in front of my eyes. We disengaged ourselves as fast as we could but we were caught in the act except we were fully clothed. The woman stared at me probably with disapproval but luckily She wasn't someone I knew.

I came to my mind and was suddenly very embarassed and very guilty. How could I have allowed myself into such a compromising position. I rushed home flustered but when I was bathing, the images of what we had done came flooding back to means got me all wet again. I rushed out of the shower, and took my dildo vibrator out and sucked it, pretending it was Kumar's cook. Then I pumped my cunt with it all the while thinking of Kumar's face and body as he thrusted and pumped me to a shattering orgasm.

Yoga instead of getting rid of my lust, had sunk me even lower into the depths of a depravity my husband cannot accept. I didn't sign up for the next course even though Kumar called me and invited me to. He offered personal home lessons but I said I was keen but busy and  will call him back when I was free. He called a few times and offered free trial home lessons but I declined. However, I am still masturbating thinking of his body and his face. That was a close call.

After that incident, I was so horny, with no release that I descended into having internet messenger sex. I had a Internet sex live chat by messenger email with a young malay man doing NS who emailed dirty to me and sent me revealing photos. I emailed dirty to him too saying that I must do my fair share of NS and the only thing I could do as a weak lady was to service the men to encourage them to defend Singapore. I love seeing him in uniform even though he was younger than me by more than a decade. He showed me his cum and I masturbated to his dirty thoughts till I came too. I'm too embarassed to respond to hi again.

I've messaged dirty thoughts to another Internet male friend and mastturbated after reading his emails but never live before. After a few times, he wants to have a Skype sex session with me but I know that if I do it live with him and he has a deep male voice, I would end him in bed with him so I also declined.

Now I do meditation at least two times a day to keep my mind free of sex. I try not to masturbate because it although it brings sexual release, it just escalates my desire in the long run instead of
satisfying it. Masturbation is addictive for me and will lead to adultery and illicit sex. The idea of meditation is to exercise and strengthen  my ability not to think about something. It's working but I have relapses. Maybe if I go back to work, or if I let the Filipino maid go, I would be too busy working or doing housework to think about sex. The devil finds cocks for idle cunts.