Lingerie for my lovers

Except for my husband Tom, all my previous ex lovers like me in lingerie before and during sex. My ex boss cum lover used to own a lingerie shop in Far East Shopping Centre and so I must have tried hundreds of sexy lingerie for him and other later lovers. I bought some online and from the shops along Lucky Plaza and later Orchard Plaza. I think men like to imagine what they can't see and they find me more exciting in revealing clothes than stark naked. 

As in above, Fred my ex boss, likes the thrill of almost being caught so he would force me out of the hotel room in sexy lingerie against my will when no ones around but anyone could pop out of their room at any time and make me walk all over and pose for photos. After that we will flirt and kiss and he would be all over me, even to the point of penetrating sex in public before retiring to our room to continue. He likes to go balconies, fire escapes and stairs as most people take the lift and I would have my arms on the banisters with my legs spread apart on high heels whilst he takes me from behind. We would check for cameras but I'm sure we have given security guards some interesting xxx entertainment before. I'm reluctant at first but after much kissing and breast stimulation, I'm usually willing to do anything for him, even kneel down and suck his cock in broad daylight. We would usually hide around a corner to have advance warning but rarely we don't hear them or the hotel room door right in front of us opens suddenly. I've been caught completely unaware with his cock thrusting in my cunt or in my mouth before. It's so embarassing for me but Fred doesn't mind. Although Fred always had to force me,  Ive grown to like to this distraction that I started to try sex in inappropriate places with my other lovers. Most of them like the adventure too. I too shy to suggest to them but if we are playing a game with sex forfeits, I would bet that I be forced out of the room with only lingerie on and hope to lose the bet.

One of my favorite lingerie was a pink one piece crotchless suit with a little pouch in front of my clitoris where a small bullet vibrator can be kept. I could wear it with a lace wrap or under my clothes. Then we can have sex in any position without clitoral stimulation and I would still come very fast. It's good for quickies and sex in strange places because otherwise, the men cum too fast for me to get an orgasm. I could also cum while giving a blow job in a public place or even just kissing in a bar, or dancing closely. Even with bedroom sex, I can turn the vibrator off if I'm close to cumming so we can have prolonged vigorous sex many positions without having to worry about clitoral or gspot stimulation.  It's useful for sex in the cinema too. I bought it on a trip to condomania in Lucky Plaza with one of my lovers. The most kinky sexperience was with one of my lovers who rode a motorbike. We went off the road along the long straight airport road besides the runway. We found an open clearing and he taught me how to handle the bike by riding pillion behind me It was great fun and he was rubbing my breasts and nipples and my whole body and my clit while I drove round and round in a circle. We got so hot, we stopped to strip completely naked and continued the motorcycle sex lesson . When I was good enough, I stood up on the moving bike and sat down on cock. He leaned forward and revved the bike so I could feel the vibrations in my cunt. We continue riding till he came inside me. He loved it. The next time I wore my special crotchless lingerie with the vibrator and wore a loose miniskirt over it. This time I had a fantastic quickie orgasm with the vibrator.. I almost crashed the motorbike when I came but Arif quickly leaned forward and took over the controls. I ts very hard for me to control a motorbike when I'm having an orgasm and I never quite learnt how to do it. 

Maybe Tom my husband can go for riding lessons....

Lusty Holidays with Fred

I loved my overseas holidays with Fred because that's when we would not have to hide in case we were seen together. We would walk holding hands or with his hands around my waist. And most of all, we could spend the whole day and night together, without him having to rush off after sex.  After romantic dinners and long nights of sex, we would fall asleep cuddled together and wake up in each other's arms. These wonderful holidays always seem too short and I will never forget them. 

On these holidays ,Fred will want me to dress me up sexily and why not, I'm only young once and I should show off my body while its still sexy and beautiful.  When in the pool, I'm always in a g string bottom to show off my pert butt. Dressing sexily for him keeps both him and I in a constant state of lust and desire.

Fred would swim up behind me and rub his cock between my buttocks. His hands are always rubbing my exposed butt. Sometimes if the pool is quiet we would flirt in the pool. With a g string, my vulva and clit are always exposed for rubbing. I'd get very excited and want to go back to the hotel bedroom but sometimes I'd surrender to his desire to fuck publicly in the pool. Usually this means me sitting on him with my arms around his neck or with him standing and I'd wrap my legs around him with my arms around his neck. The water supports my weight well so he can lift me up and down with his hands on my butt.

How I became a slut

i think sex for humans is not the same as sex for animals. animals are driven by instincts which are mostly inherited. Humans are different. How a man or woman gets sexually excited depends on their experiences when they are young and impressionable.. From my readings of novels, romances and movies, I have ideas and hopes of falling in love with a handsome capable man who will love me passionately whom I would love.

Unfortunately, these romantic books and movies didn't show how the sex was going to be. Instead, I learnt everything about sex from the stash of porn videos my father left behind when he deserted my mom and us. I get sexually excited by the same scenarios as in these porn. This means I get excited by scenes of forced reluctant sex, bondage and submission, seduction, blackmail, sex with the wrong people in the wrong places, adultery, kinky sex, multiple partners, etc. It also meant that the the men who excite me are the men who view me as the sexual fantasies in these porn. I'm their sexual fantasy come through because I'm brainwashed to enjoy the same kind of sex as I saw in the porn. I kept datng men who only wanted me as their sex toy and not as their steady girlfriend and potential wife to be. I was always a sexual fling for them but I wanted soemthing permanent. Of course when these boyfriends of mine were getting free wild sex, they wouldn't tell me they think I'm not suitable for them until they've had enough sex. Then I get dumped becaue they can't stand my sensitivity, stubbornness, and temper because while I'm totally submissive and pliant in the bedroom, my personality outside sex is independent snd proud . The trouble is that it usually takes years for them to tell me they have had enough of me because the sex is so good for them. (I try very hard in bed). So here I am, with 16 years of sex with maybe a dozen partners and none proposed!

The man I married respects and loves me and he would have married me without having sex with me! I was looking for love with the wrong people. For Tom, I felt that he was a good man to live with and raise kids with. I didn't have a falling in love kind of chemistry with him like I had with John or Fred. Neither did I the sexual attraction I felt  with my other lovers. There was neither sex nor love with Tom. Just a recogniton that he was suitable and that he liked me a lot. I wouldn't have accepted him when I was 16 or even 26. But at 32, and still single, I had to seriously consider him. And when I gave him a chance, he slowly grew on me. He's not rich But his job is more secure than many of my lovers, his respect and liking for me showed in the consideration and tenderness in his actions. I didn't have any reason to get angry so he didn't think I was hot tempered. And he was always available me wanted to spend most of his time with me. I was his number one.

If I have a daughter in future, I wouldn't want her to go through my path. I would try to teach her to ensure that she gets sexually attracted to the people who respect and love her. There's somehting wrong with me only being sexually attracted  to bad  boys. It's a recipe for sadness. All my relationships were stormy because two incompatible people were stuck together by great sex. There was always soemthing making me unhappy because the respect wasn't there.

If you have good sex with some one who isnt suitable, it just prolongs a dead end relatiosnhip. It's better not to have sex until you have established a good friendship.  It's a waste of time if you are looking for long term love.

As for me, I can't seem to undo my sexual preferences. I love Tom and I cum with him but I still get sexually excited by kinky naughty sex where I'm used like a sex toy.... Sigh.  I'm a hopeless slut. If I'm not careful, I'll end up unfaithful and lose my life's happiness.