I failed to give up my sex addiction

Hi! My few sex blog friends and followers. I'm back! The reason why I've been not been posting for a few months is that I've been trying to be a good and faithful wife to Tom. I've stopped masturbating to porn. I've taken cold showers and done meditation instead, or taken my baby for a long walk. Whenever Tom and I have sex, I have kept my mind blank, focusing on the sexual act itself instead of  fantasizing.  I felt that even this fantasizing was being unfaithful. This lack of fantasy means I cannot cum so fast so I have to delay him a bit. He's not very keen on oral sex, so when I feel him about to cum, i stop and suck his dick. This doesn't get him off so when he cools down we can resume vaginal sex. 5 minutes of pumping is all he needs to cum. He's not keen on licking my cunt either.  I've been able to talk to him about being more adventurous in sex and he's agreed to try new positions, but he still against porn and unnatural sex toys. He's ok with a bit of lingerie but nothing slutty.

I felt we were getting somewhere, but last few weeks been busy for him and the sex was uninspiring despite me digging up some of the lingerie I used to wear for Fred. I couldn't cum.  It  was the third consecutive time I've had sex with Tom without cumming. I Know it's unfair to Tom because he's got a busy job but I'm a fresh stay at home mother of one with a maid to help out and young and horny.

Anyway, after he left for work, I had a severe relapse. I was so horny. I put on my sluttiest lingerie. I rubbed my clit and thought of all my old lovers. I pinched my nipples. I put on mascara and perfume, put gloss on my lips and nipples. I put on a xxx video from the Internet on my laptop on my bed.  I had almost cum when the doorbell rang.
There were three men from Starhub to fix the optical fibre for the broadband and wifi. I had forgotten what I was wearing and didn't cover myself up. They entered my house and stood around me staring at me. I had just sent my baby with the maid to my inlaws place so I was all alone.
Then one of them shut the door behind him and I was now helpless and completely cut off. I couldn't blame them for misunderstanding that I was just another lusty housewife asking to be fucked. I was all made up with my erect nipples visible through my sheer negligee and my hem barely covering my buttocks and my gstring visible through the transparent material. Im sure they could smell my sensual perfume. I had opened the door to them and welcome them in.

I backed up away from them as they approached closer to me. I couldn't talk, my tongue and breath got frozen. For some stupid reason, I just retreated backwards into my bedroom until I reached the edge of my bed and fell into a sitting position on my bed with my arms behind me and my breasts jutting forwards temptingly. To my horror, my laptop was still frozen on the xxx movie I was watching and now the three young muscular men could see that I had been mastubating to. For some reason I couldn't speak up to defend myself. I just shook my head back and forth to mean no, but they all three nodded their heads up and down to say yes. And then they closed the bedroom door so there was no escape.

They caught hold of my arms. One of them saw the bag where all my lingerie was kept and took out a ball gag. I was about to finally speak out to say no, this is all a misunderstanding, but the red ball was thrust into my open mouth and tied and after that I could only struggle silently and vainly against their strong overpowering arms. After that, they found my restraints, and tied my hands behind my back. I tried to signal no with my eyes but they were too turned on by my voluptuous scented and makeup body presently sexily in lace. I could see from the animal lust in their eyes they were not going to stop. I tried to run but was flung back into bed. They surrounded the bed. One at each side and one at the foot of the bed, and started to strip themselves. I grunted and shook my head, but they just laughed in Chinese and hokkien, saying, the lady wants us to pretend it's a rape.

Soon they were all naked. For the first time in two years, I was seeing a naked male body other than my husband, but three at a time. And all three with hard erect cocks sticking out from the tanned muscular bodies that manual workers have. I'm sorry to confess but I felt a wild throbbing in my heart

and wet in my cunt. I was going to be raped but I couldn't blame my rapists having led them into my bedroom and opened the door to them in my seducitve outfit. Who would believe me? Now I was going to have sex with mandarin and hokkien speakers for the first time in my life..

The oldest at the foot of the bed said, let's warm her up a bit to get her more cooperative. He instructed the two on my sides to caress and kiss me. I was still trying to wriggle my body away but couldn't stop them tweaking my nipples and stroking my bare crotch and soon they were sucking and nibbling on my nipples too. The leader un paused the video I was watching. Watch this, Stuly, he said. He knew my real name from my call order for service. Oh shit.

This was what I was watching :

It was so embarassing. Now they all know what I was thinking of as I was masturbating n
I was forced to continue watching the above xxx porn whilst his two men caressed my vulva till it was soaking wet and kissed my nipples till they were fully erect again. Is that how you like it Stuly? He asked in Chinese looking me in my eyes. I shook my head. He said, " it seems you like to be forced into sex right? And you like us to be rough? " again I could t talk through the gags. Could only shake my head violently and grunt a no. You don't want to say yes but you would still want us to continue? He said. I violently shook my head.

Get her down on the bed, leader ordered and I was forced down flat on my back. Pull her legs apart. I tried to resist but couldn't help my ankles being held wide apart. He knelt down between my legs and I was bucking furiously. I wanted to be faithful to Tom but I was in our marital bed under our wedding photo with the reflection of it visible on the mirror behind the Leader and I was wearing our wedding ring. He couldn't get in but once the first inch of his cock got past my rim, my bucking only excited him further, and served to let him deeper until he was deep inside me. He started thrusting and pumping furiously whilst his sidekicks held me down.......