Monday, December 28, 2015

Forced sex play and sex toys with Fred



Fred and I are sexually compatible. We both like forced and slightly rough sex. I get really turned on when he just ties my hands behind my back. At first that's all we did , using a tie or the band from the bathrobes found in hotels. He first noticed that I like to put my hands behind my back and push my bressts forwards to be attacked when I'm riding the him like a horse and he guessed what I was thinking. I like that he can guess what I want as I was too shy to tell him at first. The first time he tied my hands I was so excited I came very fast. It was pretend rape although I did not say it at first but later we could be very frank and the sex was fabulous. We both still miss each other sexually very much.

I like kneeling down with my hands tied behind while he forces his cock into my mouth in a mouth rape. When I'm very aroused, he will deep throat me very gently and he likes the feeling of his cock fitting snugly into the back of my throat but we don't do that often as it really makes me breathless and retch and I drool saliva all over. When I'm feeling very good about him I would volunteer it as a special treat. 

The next step was a mouth gag, at first only with the terry towel belt or a tie, but when he gave me a proper red ball gag with breathing holes, it was a real turn on for me. Fred knew I wanted more so he bought some rope. All our sex toys are bought from orchard road or during out travels. I like him to tie me up so that my breasts are bound above and below and protrude forwards. I also like to have my neck tied and attached to my hands which are tied behind my back. We both like chokers and we bought a set of black leather wrist and ankle cuffs / restrained that comes with a matching dog collar. There is a light silver chain that attaches to the dog collar. Fred sometimes uses the chain to control my head position when Im kneeling on all fours like a dog while he fucks me from behind doggy
style. Some times he uses a rope instead. When it's a rope he often loops it around my slit from front to back or the other way and pulls on it so the rope rubs my into my slit and my clitoris. Cool.  Usually the chain is just attached loosely to a bedpost or lamp post and symbolic of my captivity and slavery to him.

Sometimes, especially when we are abroad, Fred will dress me up sexiliy and make me wear the black dog collar. I never got down to buying a red dog collar to match my red outfits. We will go out for dinner at restaurants or drinks at clubs and the collar always means lots of flirting and foreplay
before retiring back for a night of sex. He has a necklace with a silver phallus and testicles which can attachés to the dog collar and which I wear during sex but which he sometimes forces me to wear out..it's so embarassing and I always refuse but if he gets his way, wearing the phallus makes me feel
very lusty the entire night, and makes me more flirty with the other men I may meet. After all, I'm already broadcasting my sexuality with that dong on my neck and can't hide myself. Fred gets turned on when I openly flirt with other men. I'm the one who gets upset that he isn't jealous enough.

For a brithdsy present, Fred bought me a high end vibrator. It was shaped like a penis and had a finger like projection at the top which fits against my clitoris nicely when it is inserted to the hilt. It had a two rows of ball bearings around the base which moved against my vulva and the tip could gyrate a bit. It was covered with silicone which felt a bit like human skin. It was the best sex aid. When Fred was busy with his family, I would masturbate with it. Since it was blue in colour, we pretended it was the cock of a man called Mr Blue.

It took me a long time to confess to Fred my sexual preferences. I think it took a year of persistent questioning from him to finally confess that I liked to be roughed up a bit,  and slowly to let on that I do masturbate to fantasies of rape, forced sex, being tied up and gagged,  of one night stands with strangers, and of being fucked by more than one man.

Fred made up stories with Mr Blue to help me enjoy these fantasies. Mr blue could be his friend with
whom I had a one night stand, or who raped me, or Fred and Mr Blue would fuck me together. Mr Blue had a ring at the base and by threading a rope through it, he could be tied deep inside my cunt or my anus and attached to my neck collar so it doesn't slip out. or I would give Mr Blue a blow job while Fred was fucking me. That's how I first enjoyed the pleasures of double penetration. Later on Fred bought another vibrator and I got to enjoy triple penetration sex. Usually I'm so excited I cum intensely within five minutes. Especially if one of the dildo vibrators is in my vagina and its  finger is
touching my clitoris. My favorite combination is with vibrator tied  in my vagina and anus and my arms tied behind my back while I kneel and give Fred a blow job. Fred enjoys this as much as I do but hsi favorite is with a vibratir up my ass while he fucks me from the front and watch me perform a lusty sucking of Mr Blue, pretending it is the cock of a man I met recently. I try to put on a good show for him.

Fred introduced me to body art. He draws all over me during sex and I love it. He likes to mark me with dirty drawings or words like Freds sex slave or  slut and I'm not allowed to wash it off. He wants to own me and I want to be owned. He likes leaving love bites all over my neck and my breasts and buttocks so I would be embarassed. We are talking twenty love bites so I can't explain it away to my friemds.

He likes nipple clamps and labial clamps. I like them too. The best is the remote control butterfly vibrator which I have to wear under my panties. Then we will go out to restaurants clubs, discos and bars, parks and we will just flirt and kiss in public but I've had many orgasms in public this way.

Most of the time, it's Fred talking me through these erotic stories as we fuck and it's really more important than how we fuck. He's very good at talking dirty and it gets me all wet. With Tom, my husband, I'm not going to be able to give him the filthy mind I like, yet it would too slutty for him if I were to suggest too much.  Progress is slow although he is becoming more open. I've got to change
his religious views about sex first. He's so charmingly nice and tender in bed,,  and he wants me very
much so it makes up for everything. It's just that I want to surrender sexually to him more completely and for him to take what he deserves but I can't give myself to him as completely as the way I've given myself to every other lover.he would be so jealous if he could see the way others take me casually, and use and abuse me for sex roughly without caring as much for me. Yet my mental cunt is wired up that way. I can't masturbate to straightforward sex, there has to be a kinky story.

Fred and I compared the porn and the erotica we like and we are are so alike in our preferences it's amazing. He likes all my stories and I like his. I don't have such a good match with my other lovers and he is the lover of my lifetime. When we were  apart and I'm lonely, sometimes I'll call him with
my earphones and he would talk dirty to me while I masturbate with mr blue. After I cum I'll go to sleep feeling much better.

I especially like japanese porn. a familiar theme is that I'm not slutty but I'm being forced into sex but halfway through, becaue of my natural high sex drive, I get so turned on that I start to cooperate with my rapist and end up with a forced orgasm even if there is guilt and embarassment at the end . I'm usually the passive woman who gets seduced and not the active huntress .Some of my favorite porn includes :
Sex on public transport with strangers after being crushed together at peak hours
Being drugged and then tied and raped and filmed and then blackmailed into endless rape
Blackmail sex
Hospital sex between nurses and doctors or patients
Lonely and horny housewife at home forced into unwilling sex and seduced into compliant sex
Massage by male masseur that ends up in unintended sex
Housewife raped at home by husbands friend, colleague or boss after husband is knocked out by drunkeness or drugs. I don't like it if it's only humiliation and violence but the woman doesn't get so much pleasure she can't help herself but have an orgasm.

Pleasurable rape
Double or triple penetration. Two or three men. Not more. I don't like two women and one man and either does Fred.
Slight violence only like threats with knife or gun of forced stripping but no hardcore beating and whipping
Rough sex without hurting
Japanese anime with huge muscular hard men with enormous cocks and feminine fair slender delicate women

Freds list of fave porn
Same except he is lukewarm about  one night stands with strangers.. He only likes his girlfriend having sex with strangers in front of him or at his bidding or as group sex. He isn't jealous at all.

Two men with one women especially
Aphrodisiac sex to turn unwilling women on
Bdsm gentle. He's dominant and I'm submissive.














Wednesday, December 23, 2015

Our love nest



Fred had a two bed room apartment within walking distance of the hotel which he rented out. As his secretary, I had to attend to their requests and bank in the monthly cheques. When the tenant went back home, and the lease was vacant, I suggested that we enjoy it for a few months before renting out. After all we were already spending thousands of dollars on hotel bills and rarely stayed overnight. We always used five star hotels so it was quite expensive. We ended up using it as our love nest for several years. It was so convenient, I eventually moved and stayed there for several years and made it my home. I was like his concubine or second wife. He let me decorate it and do it up nicely. We had photos of all our holidays together all over the apartment and it was a very happy home for us. Fred had mirrors installed  all over the bedroom and even a mirror on the ceiling! But the very best feature was that Fred set up a video camera which he connected to the large screen tv so that I could see myself having sex. I really like to watch myself being fucked. I get very wet and cum very fast. We even wrote scripts, dressed up and enacted porn scenes  and role play. Watching some of the best of these were our favorite foreplay before having sex. The bedroom closet was filled with lingerie, costumes, sex aids and hundreds of our porn video productions. We are porn stars and starlets! The advantage of the digital revolution was that I could store and process and edit all these privately. Fred likes photography and we have thousands of crystal clear still photos of ourselves posing during sex. The glory and beauty of my youth is expressed and captured in these photos and videos and one day when Im old and grey, and looking back over my life, I would be able to marvel how beautiful my body once was and remember that I've lived my life as fully as I could have and shouldn't regret. I might even show my grand children how naughty grandma was! But for now, I've so much material to masturbate to whenever I crave for something kinky that Tom can't amd won't indulge at the moment. One day Tom and I will make our own videos and enact our own sex stories!